The Not Happy Thread

San Francisco=DISCO FEVER

 

Wear it to your book release party!

Or mine, if I'm so blessed. One of my novels takes place in 1980, the other in 1989...Prime shoulder pad dress time!

 

Just came up with a good idea. I can go in a shoulder pad dress, and my boyfriend can go in some 80's outfit for guys. I'll tell him he has to or I'll be sad.

 

I found a company that still makes nylon parachute pants.

With waists up to 38

 

Yes! Great idea!

 

You heard it here first, folks. Apparently the party for my first book release will have an 80's theme...regardless of whatever marketing plan a publisher dreams up. I kid, I kid. Of course I'll listen to a publisher. And then after satisfying their whims we'll have our own damn party as well!

 

Z.Cavariccis....that is all

 

I don't know if I dress like a moron or not, but 99% of people don't say anything and the other 1% say I look nice (usually my friends or family) without me asking. Doesn't matter to me though. I like how I dress, it's my own style, I think it looks good, and if some random stranger negatively comments on it then why do I care?

I mean, don't get me wrong. I don't stray very far outside the social norms of fashion to begin with. "You know you're not supposed to wear white shoes during the winter." Who effing cares? Stop looking at my shoes and pay attention to where you're walking instead, and mind your own business while you're at it.

Buy a get-up that Puritan women would've worn at the witch-trials and wear that. When you see his absolutely appalled expression just say you assumed that the 80's dress wasn't conservative enough for him.

 

My Z Cavs were white.

 

I had purple, white, brown, black, tan....and I wore these too....flojos!

 

I catalogue my notebooks tonight, took an hour to do so, 56 of them in total (58 if you include the other two spirals used for my WIP). The thing that annoys me the most is alot of them only have a few pages written in them granted alot of the material was shifted over to the computer, so that maybe why though some of them had some important Lore and Summary information including a Genesis and brief history for my world . The Ring Notebooks are what they are either with hand written or printed out material. Including a copy of my Infamous first Rough for Knights of Samax. .

I also found some empty ones or ones I made empty after ripping out the pages wasted on dumb shit I wrote in them for games such as Dragon Quest IX and other gaming shit for old games.

Sorry, it took an hour and some how took a bit out of me, and now i'm just rambling.

 

Phew. I thought I was dissociating.

 

Having trouble on revising this one chapter. I feel like a scene needs to be added but I'm not sure if I'm going about it right.

 

Hello dyshidrotic eczema my old friend
You've come to talk to me again
About the knuckles that were itching
On the forum I was bitching....

 

Five inches of snow this morning.

 

I had a jackass in a black pick up truck with Kentucky plates cut a turn right on top of me today, (I was turning left with the left turn arrow and he turned right without even slowing down for the red) then he helpped me demonstrate that you really can lock up anti lock brakes when he changed lanes and tried to take the front bumper off my car.

 

For the last 6 weeks I’ve been seeing a guy with ADHD who is extremely intense. We’ve fallen for each other, but the intensity is way too much. I can’t think or concentrate, and not in a good “loved up” way, but in a “I can’t breath and can’t get any space for my own thoughts” way. Even though we’re really in love, I feel so stressed when I’m with him that I think I’m gonna have to end it

 

Take it easy.

 

Got nothing to report!

 

Thanks @Cave Troll. I could really do with a hug right now.

 

I'm sorry. =(

 

Mash, sear this into your brain (like I had to), and put up a sign on the wall if you have to, to remember this:

Love is supposed to feel good.

What we writers do to love in our books, and how we make our characters experience love can be a whole other thing. But in real life? Love is supposed to feel good.

I'm sending you a huge hug.

 

Thank you. I think I felt this deep down. I just don’t know why it doesn’t feel good when he is objectively wonderful and there is no logical reason for me not to be happy. And if I do end it, I feel that I should at least give him a reason.

I’m starting to think I’m just happier on my own, even if I do get lonely sometimes. In relationships, once the initial intensity has died down I feel like I’m left with this huge melancholy.

 

You're welcome.

In your previous post, you said:

"For the last 6 weeks I’ve been seeing a guy with ADHD who is extremely intense. We’ve fallen for each other, but the intensity is way too much. I can’t think or concentrate, and not in a good “loved up” way, but in a “I can’t breath and can’t get any space for my own thoughts” way. Even though we’re really in love, I feel so stressed when I’m with him that I think I’m gonna have to end it "

That doesn't sound to me like it feels good.

Do whatever feels right and healthy for you.

 

Elizabeth I herself did say that "We highly commend the single life."

But I feel like that's the wrong advice to give. I'm sure that there's someone, somewhere, that's not 100% perfect for you, but with whom you can live a happy, comfortable life. But don't feel bad about being single either. Just think of it as a time in your life when you don't have to consider everyone else's wishes.

But yes, have a hug. I don't suppose that advice will make ending things (or deciding whether or not to) any easier.