The Not Happy Thread

In the past, I have lost control of myself over issues like these. It seems to have resurfaced. I shall refrain from comment until I can speak from a comprehensive point of view. I will return to this issue at such time

 

The only way I've been able to sleep for any period of time, for years, is Ambien.

 

I had to do something I'm not very proud of.

To illustrate my mother's crap to my Dad, I told him about things that she said to me over the phone when she was at an uncle's (his youngest brother's) funeral. Along other things, she said that I didn't want to be there because, and this is verbatim, "You don't want to be here, everyone is so sad!"

I was so angry when she said that I had to fight the urge to slam the phone down and destroy her side of their room. It was like my teenage rage was up to 11 and I was a month off 23 at the time. I wasn't there because she didn't give me a choice.

 

Sounds like some weed is exactly what you need TBH. It'll help you sleep, and get your creative juices flowing.

 

Just landed in Copenhagen to find out that Balt has been missing for the last two nights.

Can't be home to look for him until tomorrow

 

I wish. My company drug tests every three months and I'm paranoid to try anything in case I don't pass and end up losing my job.

 

Weed gets out of your system within about a week

 

@mashers Oh? Time to do some research then.

 

I do genuinely think it would help. Cannabis is wonderful for problems like this.

 

Careful though, it varies from person to person and depends on how they test. Blood tests are usually clean within 12-24 hours, urine tests can come off positive for about two weeks.
The more you consume, the more side products will be traceable in your pee.

 

Questionare: would you let a vampire like me take your blood if they were also a phlebotomist? I've been thinking of becoming a phlebotomist but I'm worried I might get thirsty.

OMGosh I just had a wonderful idea! One for me, one for you, one for me, one for me, me for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, on for me, one for me, one for me, one for me, one for me.......

 

Would you inform your patients of your vampiric nature?
"There Mrs. Johnson, we got enough blood for your tests. Now do you mind if I tap a little extra for later? Forgot my lunch box today. "

 

Good points Though if he's got a guaranteed window of 3 months, he should be fine! It's fucking ridiculous that this is even an issue. Want to drink copious amounts of alcohol which impairs your judgement, damages your liver, has questionable benefits and is addictive? Yeah, that's fine. Want to smoke a joint or eat a brownie to help you relax, have a nice sleep, and wake up with practically zero ill effects? Absolutely not, you're not allowed.

 

ROFL!

 

Also, employers ordering mandatory drug tests? I feel that's a serious infringement on personal privacy as well as physical integrity (if it's done by blood test).

Here's a not happy: still living in a country that chooses to fuel black markets and throw away millions for a war on drugs rather than allow adults to consume a substance that has yet to cause a single death by overdose.

 

I guess I could say that I've been feeling pretty depressed lately. I think the worst of it is over, but I hate the feeling of being at the mercy of my own emotions. And right now, I'm just in a numb daze -both physically and emotionally- for some reason. Have my driving test tomorrow, but I was so out of it today while I was practicing (it was scary) I don't think I'm going to pass honestly. Maybe I just need to drink some coffee. Or find a purpose in life. Yeah, a purpose in life might help me pass my drivers test.

 

@Jenissej
I suppose it depends on the job. If you're responsible for others' safety then I can understand it. But testing for weed is ridiculous, and it's a massive double standard that alcohol is considered socially acceptable but weed isn't.

@PoemNerd212
How about this for a purpose in life? You have a beautiful singing voice and you should share it with the world

 

@mashers thanks, man.

 

When I have those down phases, feeling like vanishing from existence, I find it helps to talk to people. Not about anything specific, just talk or text for communication's sake. To focus on something, to drag the mind out of this haze and to have a sense of still mattering, even if it's just so a conversation doesn't end. Maybe it'll help you too.

 

PM me please, Poem.

 

@PoemNerd212 Poem let me tell you my disconcerting amount of drivers test I had to take in order to pass.... 6 times. Yep that's right 6 times was the sweet spot. Even today driving is not my strong suit (everyone run don't walk she's behind the wheel again!) When I finally was told I passed by the nice elderly man I screamed so loud he jumped out of his skin with my girlfriend Jen. She was there to see my success finally. I once heard of a woman in an Asian country taking the test and failing it 98 times until the 99th time. All I can say is you got this. Even if you don't pass look at my story as a little comedy of trial and error until finally they let me in the death race 2000 club. Something's wrong with my mind sometimes I think, too good of an imagination. I saw a rusted out heap on the highway next to a rusty van and a 18 wheeler carrying gas, my mind imagined I was in the mad max world ala furiosa escorting gas to its destination. Whatever you do during your drivers test don't imagine your in the mad max world with skulls on the front of your car, flames shooting out of your exhaust. That's far too exhausting. Or maybe do imagine yourself as Furiosa driving her first drivers test, takes names and kick ass. Imagine yourself crossing the finish line girl. Imagine Dragons. *winks*

 

Oh no, that sounds terrible. But hey, things tend to seem and feel worse than they in actuality are. It's the head, our thoughts, when they get the better of us, they can make everything feel so bleak. I'm not saying there are no reasons to feel bad - I'm sure you've got a lot going on - but usually there are also a lot of things that can make us feel better, a safety blanket of sorts. A cup of coffee. A good book. A song. Something to distract your mind and thoughts.

I remember being so nervous of the drivers test as well! Like incredibly nervous cos a lot was riding on my success (I badly needed the license at the time). There were a few things that helped me to make it through with only one little error (I almost parked the car to a reserved spot): I told myself to stay calm, that even though I couldn't afford to fail, even though it was icy asf outside and I was stressed from work, if I just stayed calm and pretended the instructor wasn't even there, I'd be fine. Then I told myself it'd be over in 45 min. That's nothing. That goes by in a blink when you're concentrated on a task -- and it did! Thirdly, I was thinking about fighter jet pilots. If someone can land a jet on a tiny airstrip in the ocean, I can drive a god damn car - like that's nothing in comparison. And lo and behold, I passed!

I wish you luck! If you fail, you can always try again. It won't be the end of the world, even if it feels like it at first.

 

Tire to my previous not happy and happy, I cried enough that the rubbing had irritated both the underside of my nose and the under eye area. Feels like an eczema breakout.

 

Thanks. Coffee helped. A walk to pick up the car from a last-minute oil change did too. My test is in two hours and I feel a little better about it. It’s fine either way.

 

@PoemNerd212 I don't know if it will give you any comfort, but I was told that the more times you fail your driving test before you pass, the more careful a driver you'll be when you are allowed on the roads unsupervised.

I had to retake my test, and I had moral support in the form of my instructor in the back seat. Between my first and second tries, the law changed so the examiners had to ask if they were wanted in the car wth them.