The Not Happy Thread

Feeling really crappy again, despite having a nap. I feel sad and angry and I've got no idea why!

 

Perhaps this may be a difference in terminology and treatment between the US / UK, because some sources refer to a form of PTSD suffered by family members and people who witnessed a traumatic event happen to someone else, while others define it as a condition that can only occur in someone who had the trauma happen to them. Regardless, the counseling offered was given by trauma counselors, and anxiety (not to be confused with Generalized Anxiety Disorder) is listed as just one symptom of a whole spectrum of symptoms of PTSD. As I said, after the shootings, particularly Vegas, the difficulties some of my friends experienced were symptoms of trauma that needed to be dealt with before they could tour. Many of them had friends working that show and were glued to the live coverage on social media as it happened. Was it exactly like being there? Of course not, but it is a form of witnessing and doesn't make the difficulties they had any less valid. Ultimately, though, the severity of anyone's issues is best left to medical professionals to decide.

 

Exactly what I needed when I settle into work on Monday morning, a woman screaming down the phone because she is convinced that a prior event I have nothing to do with is not the fault of her children and is looking for a reason to have a go at someone else. No chance for a word in so I can't tell her that if she didn't stop I was hanging up.

Senior leadership has been informed instead, and I've told the teachers involved with the kids to check in with them before ringing.

 

With my luck, I'll get rejected for the position and told to call back in few decades...

 

The nightmare of immortality....

 

Man, life can get a bit... lifey, when you are an eccentric.

 

I'd like to say a huge thank you to the site I'm using for my fictional family tree for being so upfront about tree size limits. Since I couldn't find anything about such a limit, I assumed there wasn't one until I got sent an email saying that I could only add a few more people. Now I've got to decide whether or not to cough up for an unlimited tree before I'm consigned to student loans. I wish they didn't want all the money at once. I can pay five quid a week, thanks.

 

Got a new iPhone yesterday. Plugged it in today, and I heard this like churning sound coming from it. So I returned it because if it's making that now, it'll only get worse, right? So I got a replacement. This one's buttons are a bit wobbly. And, I think it makes the sound too, just not as loud because unless I put my ear up to it I don't hear it. And then I plugged my current phone in and IT makes a kind of weird sound too. So I might have returned an okay phone and got one with worse problems. Or maybe not? Who knows.

 

I just enjoy the sarcasm in this post. I like sarcasm.

 

The reason I'm not happy? Well, two things really.
1-I broke into my Christmas stash of chocolate and sweets (yes, I really did have a Christmas stash).
2-I'm not properly enjoying it. It's like the sugar isn't even registering in my body.

 

That is actually nothing short of tragic. To have the magic of something as wonderful as a stash of chocolate ruined in such a way... *Sniffs*

Four hours and one discussion with my mama later, I've found a solution to the family tree problem: the site I was originally using isn't very fancy but does have the advantage of letting you add multiple trees. It also bases it on generations, not numbers of people, which is good as my generations can get rather large. But I'm now faced with the task of copying out almost two hundred people, and also the irritation of knowing I did loads of research to try and find a better family tree website, ended up starting a thread here to ask for help, got trolled, and booted up an account on the new website, who will continue to send me emails, only to run back to the old website with my tail between my legs.

Take me back, FamilyEcho. I swear I'll never go astray again...

 

Wow! I bet that's a... a... FIFTEEN DOLLAR EASTER EGG right there!

 

Monday is normally the worst day of my week, but the woman who had a shouting monologue at me down the phone yesterday is going to be meeting with staff today, and visitor sign in is at reception.

 

Bit late for Easter. Certainly excessively early for next!
Looks yummy either way, but I wouldn't eat it because of Palm Oil. Damn you to hell Cadburys (Mondelez)!

 

It's stink bug season. Heard a buzzing on the balcony screen door and there are about a dozen of the bastards out there, dozens more on the landing.

Last year it was hundreds, so Baal only knows what we're in for. Fuck climate change.

 

Last year was the first time I saw stinkbugs in ~ 10 years. They get into everywhere.

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Work has just texted me to ask if I can work today. Today I have a valid excuse: my mom has my car. However, it doesn't stop me from being pissed off that work keeps trying to call me to come in on my days off.

No, I will not come in. It's not my fault you've gone and ruined everyone's morale to where everyone is leaving, and stop picking on me to come in. There are other employees that aren't working today, too.

 

Do they ring your mobile/Cell? Can you screen it/ignore them if they do?

 

They just text me and I could ignore them, but that feels rude so I just tell her I can't work. Hopefully they'll get the hint I'm not coming in on my days off.

 

I respond, "I can't."

 

Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn!

 

ixk syndrome

 

I feel like I should know this....I don't.
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While out and about, I started to feel like I was having to drag myself around. I lost a ton of weight and and right now all I can think about is going to bed.

Rarely do I feel like my residual paralysis causes me problems, but today was a day where it did.

 

"In his house at R'lyeh, dead Cthulhu waits dreaming."