I am so sorry you're having to deal with this right now. It's especially crushing when you have all these responsibilities looming and people to care for. Heck, even if you don't have family responsibility its completely self-esteem destroying especially if it never happened previously. I hope you're able to pick something up quick. Been there done that. Know the stress it leads to.
I was assured personally by the attorney who owns the firm that she would send my resume out and provide letter of recommendation. I'm thinking of collecting the letter but maybe not following up on her sending out my resume—particularly if she thinks her firm is run well. Family friend who is a paralegal in Florida (originally from California but you know, absurd cost of living) has been saying to get out of that firm for half a year. I didn't because I was uncertain if I would be able to get a similar position as I had no other experience in immigration law (or any law at all). I was hoping to get a year or two there to pad my resume. I've been told to get in touch with headhunters from several friends, particularly the paralegal in Florida so that's my current plan of action. Interestingly enough, the relief and lack of stress has left me feeling rather good of late. I'm waiting for the anxiety & fear to come, particularly when my larger bills start coming due. But for now, I'm going to look for employment and revel a bit in the freedom. If I were really stupid, I'd spend money on catching a movie or having a nice day out.
Two more days of iv antibiotics, and drainage tubes. Right arm has swollen to thrice its usual size. Typing hurts like a !@#$%^.
Hey, whadyano, the anxiety is starting to kick in~ I'm having a crisis of faith so to speak in that I'm suddenly afraid I don't know what sort of position I should be applying for and to some degree even in what sort of profession. Sure, I was in immigration law for the past year, but I was a rancher/luxury animal care service before that and a production assistant for an animation studio before that. (And even in the immigration law firm, I was actually predominantly handling civil litigations in composing complaints, compiling exhibits, filing aforementioned + forms etc). I've always been the sort that goes "if it pays the bills and puts food on the table, and I have my free-time for whatever me-time, I can do it" but I've never been unemployed before with a couple weeks and a few holidays between now & rent come due. I know I am fully capable probably of a wide variety of jobs. But now I'm looking at all the job titles and positions and even various industries and professions, and I'm getting pretty whelmed all of a sudden.
Having been here more often than I'd like to admit, first thing I'd recommend is to take a deep breath and make yourself a cup of tea. Then when looking at jobs, rule out the ones you're clearly not a candidate for because a lack of certificates, or whatnot, then apply to literally all of the rest. The holidays coming up are actually a good thing if you're willing to work a retail as there are generally tonnes of temp jobs popping up everywhere. It may not be as glamourous as your old job, but some money is better than none and a couple of side jobs I've had turned out to be pretty satisfying professions in their own right.
Do you have any training or job-relevant education? I think you've got a much better chance of earning a living wage in a field where you're coming in with some background knowledge.
@NoGoodNobu As a crazy thought too, what can you do now that your time is not being sucked up by a job you hated? Can you somehow choose another position which will align you with your ultimate goal of writing? What job would augment your writing? Maybe life has given you the eagle's nest shove. Meaning that life has decided you're ready to fly, and you have to build the wings on your way down. I know that sounds cliche, but many have completely changed their career path because of losing their jobs. Maybe now is the time.
@NoGoodNobu Uber, Lyft, Postmates, and UberEats, probably need extra drivers during the holidays, and the hours are flexible. A lot of actors I know work for two or three of them at once. Between Uber and Lyft, as of about a year ago in the Los Angeles area Lyft had the best pay and treated their drivers the best, or at least according to a friend who was driving for both, if that helps.
Royally fucked off because my internet signal decided it was going to drop out just at the point when I'd filled in all my personal details to sign up for bill pay broadband...which meant I then had to re do the whole form, and now it's decided that my bank details are insufficient, when it liked them before the signal cut out! I can't even claim that it's some kind of conspiracy, because it's for the same company that I'm currently with. Just their website being a cunt for the hell of it, I guess. I've even checked my email, incase it had already put it through, but nope.
Do you think this course of action wise? Hmm? One must think before one thrusts themselves balls deep into such a place as that. Lord knows what horrible stds await thee once you have committed to such an action. Wear a firewall, or in the very least an anti-virus.
Hello self-loathing and angry suicidal thoughts my old friends, I've come to talk with you again. They were my loyal companions in high school, left me alone during sixth form, and have now returned in full force. It feels like it only takes one negative thought to send me down the path to "I should do the world a favour and just kill myself".
That's why Facebook suggested you to me: two friends in common. Remember, they're the most faithful ones you'll ever have, so learn to live with them. Take it from me. Put on some Leonard Cohen, it might help. He knew the darkness better than any of it, and he managed to romance it.
I find that listening to music that has the message of dust your self off, and get back up works best when blue. It reminds me that you are still in the game.
Not sure which is worse. Wearing a firewall, or catching an TTD (Technologically Transmitted Disease).