What Are You Doing?

This was me about eight years ago. Very comfortable at times, almost scary comfortable. Led to disastrous results eventually. Hope it works out better for you.

Cool boots?

 

Go well?

 

One of my current favorite genres on youtube is the tool restoration guys. A turntable is a little modern for me, I prefer the stuff made of cast iron and steel, but I enjoyed thinking about watching you take that record player apart and restore it, so thanks for a nice start to my Friday morning.

 

Love this stuff! There's a guy who made himself an hydraulic vise! Made in Poland, is the channel, I think. Then there's James May the Reassembler. He did a turntable. The Post-Apocalyptic Inventor is great for power tools.

 

I wouldn't say "comfortable" nor "uncomfortable". I don't know which word to use to characterise this feeling. You know some periods where you feel like you've divided yourself in various areas of your daily life and it seems like your activeness is paying off and you've leveled up already, but you feel... idk... stretched out? Like your personality is splitting and then splitting some more, again and again. Like you are not yourself and once you realise this, you suddenly get extremely tired and it's almost impossible to refocus (for the moment). I've had a mix of superficial, but fast evolving happenings and deep, but short conversations going on lately and I guess that I've been affected in some way. Some key words have inserted my mind so obsessively that I can't seem to process them objectively. Too many questions hanging in the air unanswered. I took the viewers help which left me with... even more questions.

I need to lay low for a while until I get a clearer mind. I guess I'll focus on getting my school projects done for the time being, although I'm so not in the mood. I'll have to interact with so many people, most of them probably new and it's giving me a headache, but when in Rome... At least I got a lot of time ahead of me and it's gonna be a project with a start, a middle and a finish. Furthermore, I already know the date of the results. Bliss!

I ordered the boots from a website. I bought them because I need a pair of comfortable, flat boots and they looked awesome. So, they'd better be! It's veeeery rare that I buy shoes in general, because I rarely find shoes which I like (+at a price I can afford). I've been wearing the same Converse-like shoes for about a year and a half now and they're not so suitable for the current weather conditions (if for any actually) anymore. The uncomfortable part: I'm penniless once more! The comfortable part: Imma have these boots for years to come and I like them.

ETA: Now that I think of it, two years and a half.

 

I hate that tired feeling. It used to really get to me. I would get overloaded (or so I thought at the time, now is waaaaayyyyy worse) and start shutting down. I remember laying in bed one day when I had fifteen things that were due the next day, and I just said screw it to all of them and blew it all off by sleeping. I wish I had had the ability to buckle down and focus back then. I still have difficulty, but I have a rotation method now that works out pretty well. This site is somewhat of a tool I use for that very purpose of cycling focus (which I'm doing right now between school work). The personality splitting I think sticks around though. I feel it a lot, like I'm multiple people at once. Maybe that's just crazy talking, but it has its purposes I guess, just as long as I don't let it run on its own too long. I have too many roles to play and not enough mind to fit them all in. Somewhat exhausting.

I had converse once. They just hurt the arches of my feet too much. I always liked the look of them, but they're just so thin and flat that they kill my feet. I wear work boots most of the time now. I like how they tighten around the ankles and give more support (also waterproof makes my usual splashing through puddles less regretful).

 

Discussing Porfiria from a Hellenic(?) poem (I don't know the name of) with my son. He's a high school Senior, a 4.0. I was able to utilize things I picked here to help him with the poem analysis, but JesuCritu! I'm a moron next to him! Albeit a proud one!

 

Vimes' Boots Theory of Economics.

 

Been watching restorations as well. Ever since I began watching machining and woodworking vids, though restoration vids not as much, but enjoy the ones I've seen.

 

- Breakthrough with exercise.
- The forth walk yesterday I was 2 mins quicker in and 3 mins quicker return.
- While walking it feels like the same pace, and I focus on keeping the same pace each walk. Obviously the bod is improving.
- Again, been up since midnight. Now 2 am.
- Doing pos and neg feedback @ eBay.
- Uploading pics and vids.
- Writing posts.
- Contemplating for productive life next year.

 

Completely tanked my YT account. No point in dealing with
any of that circus coming to town next year. So screw them
from screwing everyone else.

 

That's my theory, thus I bought dem damn boots.

 

I'm currently on a break for an online class. Hoping that it works out and gets me a job after having no income for around 5 years. If it doesn't work out, hoping to improve my skills enough to do some gigs on Fiverr after improving my skill here.

 

Sitting in a coffee shop, trying to kill/fill two hours. Frustrating because my dream was to have empty hours to fill in a coffee shop and write or finish or revise or polish that novel or those short stories, to make best use of the talents God or the universe gave me.

Instead, I find myself adrift, not willing to focus. I feel things winding down, and part of me wants to make one last grasp at the brass ring, and the other part doesn't know what it wants except not that.

 

I watched a vid on the Coppa thing the other day, the same one linked in one of these threads.
The thought police are cracking down on the thoughtful content that can be found there.

 

Well it turns out I can upload vids directly to my blog, so I don't
have to do any hunting for a new platform.

So that works out pretty good in favor of me putting my revs there,
and can be independent from all the other messes going on, so that
is good for me.

Really need to work on how to structure my stupid blog, might do a
mix of written and podcast style content there along with the rev vids
since people seem to enjoy seeing me physically suffer these terribly
written atrocities that the authors call 'books'.

 

Thinking of rejoining this forum as an active member. I am also thinking of getting off my bed, going into my backpack, grabbing the notebook with my story and start working on that story.

 

Freezing. It's a new hobby I picked up after the move

We desperately need an apartment with proper heating where we don't have to stay in one, closed off room with a blasting heater on just to keep a comfortable temperature.

 

Debating on eating cake or actually writing in my story.

 

I am working on my writing and watching Family Guy for the back round noise. I like to have back round noise when I write.

 

An important plot point in your story perhaps?

 

TIL that if you physically burn dried sage it smells more like Marijuana than Marijuana.

-SIN

 

Oh no. So sorry about England!

One does become obsessed with the cold.

 

I miss the cold