The Happiness Thread

Too late

 

As this year - and this decade - draws to a close, I've been thinking a lot about what I'm going to do to improve myself, outwardly and inwardly, and now I'm pumped up to get started. 2020 is going to be my year. This is the year I see a counsellor. This is the year I finally let go of my self-hatred, become more confident, and get emotionally healthy. This is the year I learn how to motivate myself, and pass the year. This is the year I get tested for autism, ADHD, and anything else I might have. This is the year I drink enough water. This is the year I learn to take care of myself properly. This is the year I update my look from the one I've been going with since I was about nine. I'm already feeling like a new person. Next year, I'm going to be confident, productive, put-together, and fabulous. Next year, maybe I'll even be girlfriend material.

 

Thank you for your good wishes. I hope everyone's having a fun New Year's Eve. We're currently watching Jools Holland with a cat who seems incredibly confused to find that the snacks aren't for him.

The only problem is that people keep asking me what I'll be doing in an hour. I don't know; I don't have 2020 vision! (We are in the final minutes of being able to make that joke; I am milking it for all it is worth!)

 

....And tomorrow begins my final semester of grad school!

 

Congratulations! I've got a long road until then, but it always makes me feel more hopeful when I hear people actually making it through.

 

YOU GOT THIS!

 

Happy New Year everyone!

 

Already I've started out the new year the way I wanted to and while I know I upset some people by being more "this is me time right now," I find I don't care. I've spent too much of my life trying to please other people and trying to be what others want me to be, and now I'm going to just accept that I am allowed to be who and what I want to be. I'm going to start saying no to people and work on not feeling guilty for six months afterward.

I know it's all cliche and stuff sometimes, but this really feels like the turning point in my life. I'm going to start the process of buying a house in a few weeks and I'm going to finally start to come into the person I want to be. It's so real, and it feels fanfuckingtastic.

Good luck to everyone on their goals this year. I hope it's kickass.

 

Mine too! Although we open again on the 7th. Another 6 months and I'm out to experience another circle of job hunting once again. Woohoo!

 

im off to a rough start with this.... *jumping over to "The Not Happy Thread"*

 

Had a cataract removed today.

I've been without sight for so long in my right eye, I've almost forgotten what it's like to use two eyes. My sight is now so much better in that eye than it was before. Still need to have the left eye done, but once it is, I shouldn't need glasses anymore.

Depth perception really isn't overrated.

 

I got a baby corn snake named Rakitin a few months ago. I could never have a pet as a kid and I am beyond happy to finally have gotten one. I no longer feel left out when people talk about their pets and I love having a little creature to care for and watch grow. I love him so much

 

My mom's going in for that soon, should be good for her.

 

Congratulations! Hope the second surgery goes just as well for you.

 

Less than a week to my move!

Also, most Christmas workers are gone now and work is finally manageable again. Downside is we have so much less to do that my hours might be cut... But I should try for a new job this year anyway.

 

Here's the deal. My autistic son get services, and sometimes we need to be reimbursed for the cost of those services. Without going into detail, we decided to transition to another service provider and had an ostensibly experienced consultant help us out. Turned out she was more ostensible than experienced and managed to get us caught between two different programs, each with its own paperwork requirements, and we ended up getting no money for a big set of services. Nada. Because the rules had not been followed.

I was not a happy camper, and made it known, and known and known, always running into the same, "there's no pot of money for unauthorized services. All should be up and running in a month or so, but no reimbursement for lost payments."

I made myself a pain. A well-reasoning pain, but not hesitant to raise my voice and sarcasm level when appropriate.

Today I got a call from the agency that screwed up. They found a way to reimburse us, and will do it. All of it. I'm happy and grateful. And cynical. Because if I hadn't known what buttons to push and hadn't pushed them, I seriously doubt we would have gotten any of this done. Which makes me wonder about all those folks with lesser education and opportunity, what happens to them in situations like this? I shudder to think.

But as for me and mine today, we are happy.

 

Wow. You should write a story about that.

 

I've never really thought of myself as good-looking, and that's never bothered me. But today I was looking at myself in the mirror and I realised that actually, I'm quite pretty. It was like an epiphany.

 

Well I got a good piece of advice and a direction to get past my
stuck spot in my WIP.
Also apparently at the tail end of chapter 4 works on being left
kinda open to reader interpretation.
(I was told that some things I write 'organically', which was
interesting, since that apparently means on some level I
write with my subconsciousness.)
So hopefully I will be able to make more progress than just
hitting a solid wall of 'IDK', for the past few weeks.

 

My girlfriend (who lives in Italy) is coming to visit. In June. Haven't seen her in over a year. I'm fucking ecstatic.

 

Yeah, guy. Things are gonna get NSFW real fast.

 

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Got myself preapproved for a home loan. Feels weird. And grown up. Gross, but happy.