What Are You Doing?

Listening to David Bowie and talking with my crush. Turns out they were also crushing on me, so acting on it was a good thing.

 

Listening to Pat The Bunny and I`m not sure what else I`m doing. Calmed myself down, did some things here at home, and went up to the neighbors. Spent the rest of the day there caught up, gave him the gifts, helped his grandmother get her groceries, and had a nice day but by the end of it I felt like I could barely stand just so tired. Didn`t think anything of it at first, after this morning I thought I was just drained. I came home, fed the pets as fast as I could, and then went straight to bed. Only able to sleep like an hour, after that it was in and out, headache, cold and hot, goosebumps, aches, and just not good. I just wanted to sleep more than anything but couldn`t. Some tea and grilled cheese later and I`m fine hell it`s almost one am and I`m feeling wired now. Don`t know what happened. Thinking dehydration or blood sugar crashing but I`ve been drinking and eating fine today. Went from like four things of soda today to none, maybe the caffeine in the tea helped and it was a withdrawal. Maybe I`m just dieing idk. Thought flu at first but I don`t think so anymore, we`ll see if it comes back in the morning.

Should try getting some sleep here, if I can after all that. Today`s been a roller coaster. Tomorrow...work`s been going meh all this month..worries me...but just gotta get through it and then there`s a stack of things at home I need to do. Pray that things go smoothly.

 

Eating breakfast.

Back to work today after a two day vacation. Should be happy for a three days work week, but I'm too tired. Last night's storm made it hard to sleep.

 

Tea instead of coffee this morning. Clear skies, nice weather. After morning study, I'll go out for a walk to nowhere.

 

Thinking about turning the dream I had into a short story. I think it could work. Especially if it doesn't end happily... hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Ohp! Gonna be late for work.

 

I was thinking about this. Taking a walk to nowhere. Haven't done this for a while. Always going from point a to b and back to get something done, to meet up with someone, to accomplish something. Tomorrow, I'm getting that walk too! If the weather isn't tragic.

 

Sub teaching, in for a secondary school librarian. It's Final Exams, and presently another teacher has his kids in here taking their tests. So I'm merely symbolic and can explore WF--- or work on my novel. Which I shall do now.

 

It's fun. Makes everything one finds a mini discovery. It's how I've found some of the best eateries.

OT: Walked. Leg was hurt from skiing but it healed a little. Guess what? I hurt it all over again. I'm the fucking man when it comes to beating myself up. Hell yeah!

Eating at my local Chinese bakery as some random old Chinese man shares the table with me. Fun times.

 

New day, more study. Think I'll change up the topics, try and keep it fresh. Try.

"Do or do not. There is no try" - Yoda.

Yeah, well, fuck you too, old man.

Hot chocolate this morning. Another clear day, least for now, but I can't walk around aimlessly due to the hurt leg. Bah.

Still slept great last night. Music really does soothe the savage beast.

 

Listening to the Gus and Eddy podcast while my quesadilla digests after work. Work went well enough, long day all my rooms were one bed oddly enough so that was nice. I need to take better care of myself, been having problems with my blood sugar dipping. It could be a prediabetic thing which is...worrisome.

Off tomorrow kinda just want to go to bed but deadlines coming up and still piles of things to do...and it`s already past eight.

 

Trying to get a start to my day. Slept in lateish because day off and... I didn`t want to wake up to deal with snow. Snows really not bad just needs to be swept, probably icey though. Waiting until the sun`s out more to deal with it. After that things to do, trips to Walmart and lightbulb hunting springs to mind. None of it to exciting. Had wanted to use my day off on going to the book sale at the mall...I love book sales and the gems you find...but that probably won`t happen. Which saddens me but hey, whatcha gonna do. There`s a whole year ahead for that I suppose.

Last night went...watched the lectures in my Buddhism MOOC (yes I was doing that months ago I`m actually seeing it through this time shush), for the week and got up to the essay assignment which I`ll have to force myself to find a time and work on through the week. I like the prompt I chose well enough, it`s something I was thinking about even in the first lecture so I`m looking forward to that. Assuming I finish it.

I paid my bills after that, and bought Endless Space (2) and Endless Legend while there on sale and started playing the later. (no streaming silliness this time ether) Kinda was in cloudy headspace and ignored the tutorial. Which was a bad idea for this game. Gonna have to go back and play proper one of these days. So many games I still need to finish.

Didn`t end up doing much besides that. I still need to figure out why I`m having problems resizing some image files for a project. Said project needs to have the files in by midnight Sunday so that`s breathing down my neck. The person in charge of it keeps sending out kinda angry emails reminding us on that. I wanted to have them in last week but I can`t figure this out, and couldn`t make it to get help from my mentor. Might try to call him today see if he can`t walk me through it.

Starting to fell a bit overwhelmed with everything but its still all coming together..just slowly and cutting close.

I should make the call and get dressed.

 

So had a view of this. My two thoughts:

#1- Damn. Someone better make a movie about Mwindo. Get on it, people! >:[ That said, I like how this myth ends on a happy note unlike in Greek and Roman mythology. *glares at them*

#2- Why is it that dads in mythologies always seem to hate their kids? xD Surely there's a myth or two where there's a dad who actually likes his kid and, in an effort to subvert the prophecy of doom, he raises his kid with love and care. Then tragedy as the prophecy comes to fruition.

 

Pondering dinner. Think I'll try my hand at making Indian Butter Chicken, even though I don't eat meat anymore, due to weak-stomach syndrome (I dunno what else to call it). Wife would love some home cooked food, so I'll do it for her. Could make a small pot of veggie curry for me, too, so dinner isn't just naan with butter sauce.

Also, who turned the winter switch back on? Gimme my spring-like weather back, dammit!

 

Just finished clearing 8 inches of snow from driveway and sidewalk; fixing a big breakfast of eggs, hashbrowns and sausage, with good black coffee; wife just called from Doha Qatar where it's winter and 70 degrees F, and she's getting ready for a nice dinner, then tomorrow a fabulous breakfast buffet. Sometimes I hate her.

 

Delt with the snow myself here today, not fun. Sitting down after work while my food digests drinking some chai tea. Feeling overwhelmed lately, but for now have a Twitch stream pulled up and Freecodecamp in the next tab. Just gonna listen and do some coding while shutting out the world for tonight.

 

Chillin out a bit. Long day of just stuff. Gonna take another
drum break, and try not to have my stereo speakers fall over.
Also, did you know that Vampires have missionaries?

 

Wondering why I`m still awake. Feeling tired and anxious yet sleepless. Trying to keep a hold on everything this year and it`s not even February and I already fell exhausted. Don`t know whats going on with the project, works got me in knots, been having blood sugar problems, no word yet from the friend on the editing, haven`t even started the poetry I wanted to do, paperwork to do still stacking up, and I just hope I can make it.

Just late night thoughts.

Probabbly gonna play some Gwent if I can`t fall asleep. I should, for work though.

 

Catching myself under a time constraint for a gift, and doing absolutely nothing about it.

 

Stuck to this yesterday, I don`t know what happened with that project but hey had to let it go and take the mental health day. I hate how it might make me come off flakey, and...I don`t like that image but...what will be will be. Off today, I got an idea of what I want to do with it but don`t know if they`ll come together. It would help if I could sleep, but I can`t . Need to get on a more consistent sleep schedule...among so many other things.

 

Lying here marinating in dilating eyedrops, waiting my turn to be wheeled in for cataract surgery.

My stomach's growling.

 

Making roasted poblano and split pea soup. Also going to roast some sunchokes in a moment to go along with the soup. It's for my food blog and I was going to get it all done yesterday, but then my niece had to be all cute and start walking.

 

Being awake far later then I should be wondering what I`m doing myself.

 

Dealing with this here shin fracture. Turns out playing tennis while suffering a shin splint wasn't the smartest idea. Eh. Least now I have extra time to practice a new hobby - acoustic guitar!

Silver lining an all.