What Are You Doing?

I didn't even make it to Forensic Files last night before I fell asleep. I think I butchered whatever semblance of a sleep schedule I had and now if it happens, it happens when it's going to and not when I'm ready for it.

I'm gonna go make my salad for lunch today and get my breakfast ready. Work has been so pleasant all week since the resident douchebag has been away. I'm grateful we have today and tomorrow without him.

 

House shopping. Wife an I agree on not leaving New York (family is close) and not living in the immediate city, so we're just outside of it, looking at some houses.

Nice places out here, though, is it wrong that the scenery inspires a serial killer story in my head? Such quiet neighborhoods are home to friendly smiles and hidden horrors....

 

Wondering just how bad changing flights is within the US, as it would save me 200 euros. I won't have luggage anyway.

 

Hoping to find that backup from 2018...

 

I'm a sucker for a traditional Greek tragedy. But yes, as a change, Mwindo's story does need some kind of modern telling!

The creation myths are pretty neat, too: http://exploringafrica.matrix.msu.edu/african-creation-stories/ I looked into them a while ago in an attempt to expand my idea pool for fantasy theology.

Edit: I especially like that death defeated worry. Gee, thanks.

 

Waking up slowly. What do I mean? I've been waking up since 11:30 pm and got out of bed at 1:27 am. I slept for about 16 hours straight and saw tons of dreams, one of which was very long and somewhat a continuation of another. If dreams are movies then this one is a series and I've got a feeling it's not over yet. Anyhow, I feel so refreshed. It's been ages since I slept so soundly and woke up without a hint of pressure at my eyes. I also looked myself at the mirror and boy, am I looking good! It's gonna be a fine day today.

 

So when you dream it is like going to the cinema?
Sure hope that you aren't over charged for popcorn.

 

Some dreams yeah, they are like films in which I don't participate in, but this is somewhat rare. In most dreams I'm the protagonist (even in other people's skins, or animals or even... a dragon). No time for popcorn. I got a fire to put out!

 

You devil, you! Kidding aside, I've never eaten this kind of candy. As a kid I wondered what these things they showed in cartoons were. I ended up thinking they were condensed fat and that maybe it was an american thing. Yummy!

 

I'm currently eating a giant Tootsie Roll I found while digging through my storage boxes to get my liquid smoke. I had every intention of making a fake pulled pork for the carry in tomorrow, but Morningstar doesn't have their fake pulled pork anymore. So fake bbq chicken it is.

This Tootsie Roll is massive, and probably the equivalent of ten small ones, and I'm going to eat the entire thing tonight because I am ... in the mood to devour.

 

Sitting here 0n my birthday, listening to polka punk, and enjoying my day off so far. Think I actually have what could be called a proper sleep schedule for once so...adulting. It`s actually kinda magical. Had Friday off again, doubt this will keep up forever but it`s nice to be able to take the trash out in the morning without worrying about being late. All things considered, things our doing well work`s going well enough, the routines going well, been taking all my vitamins, and etc. Still, my birthday always seems to make me insecure, like I just keep getting older with nothing to show for it. I haven`t even finished the Medium article for this month. Did some reevaluating lately, getting some ideas for things going forward. Routines set good, wrap up my current need done list then use that Pomodoro technique and add in some new habits. Then increase from there.



All things considered, I`m doing well. I`m just depressive. I also never expected to live past 22 back when I was younger. Yet here we are.

 

If I can ever make a decision, I'll let you know.

 

Sitting in international arrivals trying to figure out which flight is processing by the ethnicity of the people waiting.

 

Happy Birthday! Wish you good luck and new horizons to open. Life's weird, but it has so much to offer. In any age.)

 

Trying to continue my second WIP in English (it's all in German until now) and I must admit it is much harder than I thought. I know the words are all there, somewhere in my head, but whenever I try to find them they hide away and are gone (shy little creatures ). Now I'm at a point where I even can't think of the right German words anymore, so I guess it is time for a break. Good Night!

 

Never thought I'd see thirty, and I'm 31. So, here we are indeed, friend. Happy birthday, btw. I hope it was an easy day for you.
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On topic:

I stared into space for a solid fifteen minutes not really thinking about anything and only realized what I was doing when I sneezed. Should probably try to sleep, but ... I don't know. Also, I killed a spider in the bathroom earlier and I just want everyone to know, Tampax boxes are excellent spider smashers. I am a professional. I also squealed like the lady I am because it was an ugly fucker.

 

My son, at six, was known as the 'bee whisperer'. Today he is a seasoned spider wrangler. We raise thoroughbred racing and jumping spiders.

 

Must be tough finding tiny jockeys.

 

You wouldn't believe how small some ants are!

 

May a thousand 'ugly fucker' spiders invade your head while you sleep tonight, and crawl inside any orifice that happens to be open.

I don't mean that with any malice, you understand.

 

Just drove stick for the first time. It was terrifying. I was shaking after.

 

I wish. I miss those days. Started off with a Golf that was stick shift. Still one of my favorite little cars I've ever owned.

 

Man, I don't know how you can say that. I'm not confident I'll ever be able to get into first gear without making the car shake like a building after a meteor impact. At least I never stalled in an intersection.