I suddenly felt sad and I think I can articulate why. There's so much knowledge, painstakingly created, found, and assembled by millions working through their lives, 99.99% of them forgotten by the rest of the human race. Most of these people likely were just normal people who didn't get the fame and glory of everyone else. And there's so much knowledge that we can never truly hold all of it in our heads. We can only hold small fragments, and even then that's not much compared to all the little bits and pieces not in the books. I get this when I try to write uplift fics and am faced with evidence of my staggering ignorance.
I don't know how to talk about my life on the Happy Thread and the Unhappy thread. It's fun and moving to read the way people talk about small things in life that make them happy/unhappy. Everything in my head is very big and serious. And everything I would talk about would sound like a complain or whining. So I don't talk. I just read what other people say and wish I would be able to talk like them someday. That's what makes me feel like an outcast here.
Im like that in real life. I've also been told in real life that im too serious and "thats why no one likes you" (college friend-who-is-nolonger- friend said) Think of it this way.... We are all just words and pictures on a screen. Unload to us. Vent to us. You'll never ever see us... So it doesnt matter if you feel like you are complaining or not. Think of us like a journal that writes back!
My heartburn is very bad due to a hiatal hernia, and my doctor's appointment isn't until Monday. I basically am going to have to beg the doctor to set me up for surgery ASAP, as I don't know how I'm ever going to be able to eat anything without this pain.
Have you had occasion to visit the First World Whinging thread? Exactly the thread for such posts. https://www.writingforums.org/threads/the-first-world-whinging-thread.157337/
I feel your pain. I just had my inguinal hernia (groin) fixed two months ago. It sucked but now I feel better than I ever have in my life. And the procedure isn't really that bad, though I suppose an abdominal wound will have different repercussions than, uh, down there. Good news is once it's fixed you'll be doing cartwheels in no time!
Parental discretion advised. This is what anonymity results in. Yeah, I probably deserved it for going there. I never learn. People are the worst sometimes, aren't they? I shouldn't even be posting this, but I need this mini rant. I mention two older men living together and this is the result. I'm not homosexual myself, but this is irritating.
See, now this is exactly why I worked in animal shelters for as long as I did. Most days I’d rather scoop dog shit than deal with people.
It is, embarrassingly. You know why I went on there? Because once or twice some people were helpful and sometimes there are decent threads about quality literature... By the way, I just want to clarify that in my original post, when I said I wanted serious, published authors and mentioned my measly one writing credit, that was purely because I knew how toxic and juvenile these people often are. I wanted to stress my critique swap was important to me and I wasn't in the mood for stupidity. At least I tried. These people are hateful through and through. See this perfect example from later on, completely unprovoked: "You come in here on your high horse taking yourself ridiculously seriously and act surprised when nobody agrees that your farts smell good. Try a bit of fucking humility if you want better results. Even better yet, post your ACTUAL WORK instead of trying to fall back on self-promotion and a stern demeanor. Nobody gives half a shit how many writing credits you have, what your story is about, or that very fucking inane way by which you try to portray yourself. If you're butt hurt and poopy faced over some boohoo mean words on 4chan, GO BACK. If you can't do that, try to be a little less of a pompous fag. Nobody is impressed."
I got a progress report today from the electrician working on my house. It’s not good. The amount of bastardized wiring he found raised my house from 6.4 on his WTF scale to 8.9. We have yet to learn just how big a can of worms we opened with this project, but the current state of things is not rosy.
Doesn't sound like much fun. One day out of work over the week, I got to see a wiring job that would drive anyone insane, considering all the wires were the same color. I guess the guy who hired us for work, had a fun time figuring out which wire was what.
My dad's old house (got bought by the county and bulldozed because it was on a floodplain) had previously been owned by an electrician. There were twenty-seven electric sockets in the kitchen alone, on I forget how many different breakers. My bedroom had 8 sockets, 4 sets of two, and one of each set was wired to the light switch. One flick and my room was "on."
My house was built in 1924, it’s an old Craftsman bungalow/catalog house. When we bought they told us the electric had been completely updated. That turns out to not be the case. The electric first messed up when the roof started leaking; random outlets and lights would work, and then not work, and work again. When I got sick, everything got back burner’d. Now we’ve gotten the roof fixed- replaced with a 50 year warranty roof- we called in an electrician to look at the problem. One example of the atrocities he found is in the bathroom. One outlet near the floor, and one above it near the sink. The one by the floor is tied into the outlet on the other side of the wall and the one above it with a piece of a light weight extension cord. No joke. The UL tag is still on the cord. They just cut the plugs off, and wired the outlets all together. And since the party just keeps rolling along, you know I was doomed to find something else that needs to be fixed. The cast iron drain stack has a nice big crack right along the casting seam. I took a picture, but the file is too big. It won’t upload.
RE: the 4chan thread above. Wow. I'm actually stunned by this. I ended up posting some excerpts just to see what these "people" would say, my curiosity getting the better of me. This was on another thread and someone connected to the dots to discover I was the same person who wrote the original message, apparently. I said "Hello again. Will it be insults and laughter or something, perhaps, more constructive?" This was the genuine response: "It makes me want to make fun of you, I'm not gonna lie." Imagine being this disgustingly juvenile. I get that it's an anonymous image board, but the fact he blatantly said, "It makes me want to make fun of you" is insane to me. I could only respond: "I don't understand this. Why would you make fun of someone for no reason? The story isn't about sex... There are no weird sex objects. I haven't even suggested there are. Frankly, I'm surprised you bluntly said, "It makes me want to make fun of you." Can you see why I might think you're just some 15 year old kid? Honestly, I'm more inclined to just ignore you." Sorry. Rant over.
Very. I have the same thing with my sub teaching, but at least all the jurisdictions I work in have the same earnings tax rate.