The Not Happy Thread

Apparently I have aspergers, and that's why I think with my hands.
They want to do CBT to improve my social skills, but I'm scared doing so will stifle my creativity. I enjoy being me, and I don't think just because I'm a little 'quirky', I need to be fixed.

 

Just say no. They can't force it on you without your consent, no?

I'm quirky myself, and any doctor that wants to fix me can just shove it up their arses. There are actually people who DO need to be fixed (re: injured people, actually sick people).

At any rate, I don't know why I'm bummed. It's been that way since last Saturday. There's nothing wrong in my home life, nothing wrong in my school life, yet I feel a tad bummed. :/ It could be...

#1- I'm stuck in a rut and need to change habits.

#2- I'm not writing and now my characters are PO'd.

#3- I'm just tired of school and want summer to get here.

#4- All of the above.

 

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy is not dangerous. It will absolutely not stifle your creativity. If you get the right therapist it can be one of the most uplifting and useful things you ever do with yourself.

 

Hmm the only thing I can think of is that the files have connected to each other but that should be able to be fixed by a simple deletion. The only thing I can think of trying is to open folder 1 cut folder 2, paste folder two elsewhere like on desktop. Delete folder one, open folder two see if there is still a folder 1 inside it. Also rename folder 1 and 2 before hand so you can see if they are indeed the same folders that you are going back and forth to.

If this doesn't work which it probably wont but its worth a shot. Have you tried a defrag to see if something fragmented when this happened?

If none of this works go to an actual tech forum and ask for help a lot of people are nice enough out there to help.

Good Luck.

 

Yeah I tried that. They are all different folders except they are just named 1 and 2 over and over again.

I'll try that later today probably and then go to an actual tech forum.

 

I feel like an idiot. Like I've wasted a lot of time and a piece of myself on a situation that will never be what I want it to. I know I should cut and run but I must be a glutton for punishment because I just can't seem to bring myself to do it or stick with it. It's sad and pathetic of me and if it were anyone else involved I wouldn't have hesitated even this long to just cut and run. I don't understand what it is that's making me soo stubborn about this or so darn blind.

 

Whatever it is, don't beat yourself up for it. Sometimes the only way to learn is by going through something hard, and awareness is the first step towards getting things together. Sometimes you have to let yourself come to terms with the fact that you failed in order to move forward.

 

It's a gray, rainy, and overall dismal day I think the clouds ate the sun.

 

A friend of mine just found out her mom has stage four spinal fluid cancer.

 

Send it my way... we need the rain please!!

 

CBT is just a way to practice doing things that is hard (like hanging around anywhere outside if you got a phobia of birds) and sometimes changing destructive though patterns (like for some people shop hating them self) in small steps. It might be helpful improving what you practice but it wont change who you are in any other way. You will still be the same creative you.

I would give it a try, decide that I would give it 10, 8 or 6 weeks and then decide.
The only thing you might consider a downside is that therapy is a bit tireding, so you might be a bit more tired the days you go to therapy. But if it can help you in the long run, it will save a lot of energy in social situations in the future.

 

Cabin Fever in the woods today!

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy
All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy
All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy
All work and . . .

Can't wait to go back to the city and hang out with friends this weekend for my birthday.

 

Justr don't let the topiary animals surround you. They will devour your sanity.

 

No topiary animals here. Lots of my Mom's drawings of tree people, though . . .

 

That's me right now. Someone, please, just put me out of my misery!

 

It's snowing. No joke. I hope I'm dreaming. *bangs head on table*

 

Mike Wolfletter (My outlaw in my western): Sure. How would you like to go?



I don't know where my outlaw just came from, but he just elected to show up out of the middle of nowhere! Try singing the I Have Cabin Fever from Muppet: Treasure Island.

 

Middle of April. Snow on the ground. Thundersnow storms. Yes, THUNDERSNOW. I didn't even know that was possible.

 

I'm right there with you. Well, no, I'm in New York, but the mythical Thundersnowbeast visited me as well.

 

*Wishes I was in Syracuse instead of Texas ... I'll take thunderstorms and snow over wild fires any day

 

Something really awkward happened today. REALLY REALLY AWKWARD. lol. More of a humorous misunderstanding I can laugh about later but.....yeah.

 

Oh, yikes. I'm sorry.

@Mal - Umm, Hrm.. how do I respond to that? I'm sorry?


My sucky news... It's still cold and snowy Of course now I feel guilty saying this since Corbyn is toasting

 

Lol you don't have to be. It's one of those things that's objectively funny, but also really awkward.....like when someone else does something awkward and you're there and you're just kind of cringing for them like "um...."

 

I am so tired. According to the handy little message in the top corner of my screen here, I was last online a little over 4 hours ago. Which means I've had a little less than 4 hours of sleep. Why do I do this to myself?

 

feeling decidedly bad today
my grandmother has just been put into a care home because she was screaming about the voices getting her unless she acted like a frog
also my neice (18 months) was rushed into hopsital after having epileptic sezier (her first)
and to top it all off I am celebrating being unemployed for a year.

like i said, not feeling so great today.