This is about many things but I think this thread might be the best place for it. I was emailing an editor I had paid to help me before, and one thing she said to me was 'be honest with yourself. If you want to just do writing as a hobby - do that. If you want to make it a career, you need to plan for that. Find your audience by branding yourself, using social media and networking.' It just hit home with me. I might not be honest with myself what I want out of writing. I keep saying, 'oh yeah, the work is valuable in itself. I don't care about success!' I think I like the idea of what the writing world was back in the 1950s, where you just kind of slaved away in isolation and sent out stuff to be published in magazines. Then, if you built a reputation for stories, you maybe got an advance to write a novel. I am totally aware this world barely exists nowadays, yet all my behaviour is in line with a writer living in this world. I am not really opening my eyes to the reality of the market. I've never really said to myself 'writing is JUST a hobby' OR 'I need to be successful.' I think the main thing about success would be that my status in society would be the same as what I believe my greatest strengths as a human being are. So THAT would be great. Instead, I feel like a bit of an imposter in both worlds. A fraud at my job and not REALLY a writer. I'm not even talking massive success. I'm talking like, a series of publications. But why would that solve anything? It would just create the need to continue the publication streak so as not to lose my precious status as a writer. But yeah, instead of choosing one of those things, I say something like 'this is a hobby but it might be something else someday if I work at it and get good enough.' This isn't a PLAN OF ACTION. It's just a daydream. I feel so damn conflicted cos some people say 'just enjoy the work and it will come' but if you just enjoy the work, you aren't necessarily doing all the necessary marketing you need in the modern world. I feel like I need to start working more concretely about how to make things work for me OR realise that it never will. I think the daydream of thinking somehow someday some way it might all fall into place is just too pleasant of a thing to let go of. But maybe, it's a necessity. What do you think?