Ok befor you read it I'm crap at writing I can't spell to save myself and I'm no good at punctuation ( I failed my English writing exam lol. ) so please just ignore punctuation and spelling mistakes. I wrote this 30 mins ago it's my first time ever writing anything like this. I just want to know What you think? did it move you in any way? can you relate to it at all? What was good what was bad about it ? "I feel like iv lost all hope , all innocence all stenght all emiotions all everythig. I feel like iv fallen down a hole and I don't have the strength or will power to climb back out. So I give up all hope of ever getting out of this dark lonely place and let it take over me, I let it swallow me howl and engulf me in utter sorrow, emptyness , nothingness. The pain becomes to much, my world spins out of control it's all so confusing , so much is going on , sorrow , hoplessness , lonlyness , worthlessness , sadness , anger , guilt and yet at the same time absolut nothingness , i'm numb i'm empty inside and life just seems pointless I feel compleetely dead inside. I need to feel somthing, it's to much to bare, I try to let it all out I try to cry but the tears just won't come. So I give up all hope again and insted of drops of clear liquid from my eyes that fall to this cold unforging floor Of this dark lonely place it's drops of deep red liquid that fall from my arm .I'm lifted out of this deep dark hole for a while. but I fall down into it's thick dark emptlyness once again this time deeper and I the cycle starts again. this time I try fill the emptyness with food .I eat till I feel my stomach explod. I feel out of control again I feel ugly , fat and worthless. I need to feel in control. I watch as all my sorrow and emptyness explodes out of me with my food by it's side. I close the toilet lid and flush all my problems away. I feel in control i've got my self out of *this depressing hole once again , only to fall down it again and for the cycle to start again with the hole getting deeper and darker each time. Is there any point in even trying anymore ?"