I'm halfway through writing my first sex scene(s), its something I'm doing because I feel it will help me grow (not that kind) as a writer. The difficulty I have is that I feel a little embarrassed about writing it - what if my mother ever sees this filth? I am a writer who draws on personal experience to paint scenes, so in essence much of the sex scene is really based on my own life and experiences; this feels somewhat exhibitionist. I also use women I know in everyday life (whom I have never had sexual encounters with) as the characters in the sex scenes. I am desperately attracted to these women so I find no shortage of material to draw upon. In order to protect the identity of these ladies I am extra careful to make the effort to sufficiently conceal their true identity by doing some body part swapping, and name swapping too. So for instance Emily has Jennifer's legs, and Emily has Natasha's lips, and personality traits so on. Thoughts?