I didn’t get much out of my previous experience with writing coach. It was profoundly disappointing after struggling to explain my story and trying to articulate the multiple issues I felt with the process I was given suggestions where stuff I had already thought off or stuff that was basic. I feel like it would have been something that would’ve helped a writer who was in a much earlier stage of a project instead of being somewhere advanced like I am. It’s very difficult for me as someone with ADHD to explain the issues I have writing my 230-thousand-word novel, as it’s something I’ve been constantly thinking about it for years and I have so much thoughts pertaining to the issue that it’s hard to collect and organize them all, not only that but I have to explain to them what the whole damn book is about. When I send them, a long email explaining all these things I think and feel I am dismayed when I am meet with responses that I feel don’t process all the information I sent them. Explaining all this stuff on the google meet call eventually became draining as the meeting extended later into the hour. But the most disappointing thing was that she wasn’t able to give much criticism of the segment I sent her, she said it was good and that I conveyed everything clearly which left me without a goal I felt I could pursue. Perhaps it was my fault for sending her a segment that was “too good” of course I didn’t send her my best content but at the same I wanted to send her something that represented all the aspects of the story. After going through this ordeal and not having much value reciprocated, I feel demoralized towards any attempts to try again. Recently I’ve tried writing three different segments of the story recently and I’ve failed to hit the flow state each time which is deeply frustrating when you know what the flow state feels like. The first two where interludes focusing on the backstories of side characters, the ideas where solid but I just couldn’t execute them well. After the first two I was prompted to take a break after then attempting a segment that focused on the progression of the main story, I had a idea that would let me progress and I was making better progress but again I could not execute it well as I needed to introduce a large amount of characters and would need to have them all interact in an interesting way. And the main character needed to come up a plan or a speech something that would convince a few of them to help her with a mission. This is the frustration that has prompted me to return to the idea of a writing coach. But in a way it’s more than just that there’s a deep-seated frustration pertaining to the herculean effort of delayed gratification it takes to spend years writing your first book. I have been writing for years and all I have nothing to show for it. While I have sent my writing to other people who have commented on it being good. I am confident I have created a good product but it’s still not on shelves. Perhaps the issues I face are “all in my head,” sometimes I think that If I had the self-esteem that came with being published or selling copies I could easily banish the restlessness associated with writing and I could face my writing issues if I took the time to break down all my problems and ask my self what is the solution for each respective one, just as I’ve done many times before. Perhaps I would get more value out of hiring a therapist than a writing but I’m unsure. I type in "writer coach" in goggle search and I’m confronted with a deluge of options while simultaneously being bereft of any ways to distinguish which options would fit me and my story. In short, I need some help.