So, I am a roleplayer and am writing for a character named Kestrel. She's a woman born into an empire which was founded on religious zealotism, and to sum up her character: She is aloof and struggles with relationships. She has pride in her religion and, at the very least, the origins of her Empire — as well as her race. She is incredibly driven by the idea of function and improvement. Efficiency and "keeping the machine in peak form" above personal feelings and emotions. She refuses to lie. The issue I ran into is that I also wanted to make her a criminal, and I did. I just really liked the idea of a highborn-like, honest criminal. "I do not lie, because if I do the job correctly I will never need to." Despite that sentiment, Kestrel was eventually sold out by (So-called "friends"? "Business" partners?), sentenced to prison, and served time before she was eventually sent to serve as a penal soldier. To date, I've kept her charges relatively vague (other than them being "heavy"), including her involvement in the crimes themselves. The story is Kestrel currently in this military unit, fighting alongside hardened soldiers as a lowly little prisoner meant for cannon fodder. The issue I'm running into, however... is that I can't find a motivation for her to have turned towards a life of crime. I didn't think about it until I was knee-deep in the roleplay, but a character like Kestrel would have actually been drawn to military life from the very start, like a moth to flame. So I'm struggling to find a sound justification for something that's been "established". Any ideas on how a prideful perfectionist, god-fearing and proud of her nation, could have turned her nose up at military life and instead turned into a criminal in the eyes of said God and Empire?