The last few weeks have been a bit of a blur and I can't remember what I posted about it. So I'll summarise. There are people here whom I have come to see as friends, and I feel bad about being away so long. So I want to explain why. My partner ended our relationship after 6 years, and I've had to move out of our home and in to my parents' place. I basically had a complete mental breakdown. I didn't sleep for 10 days, during which time I attempted suicide, almost ended up sectioned, and then almost completely dissociated. I think the only reason I didn't completely lose it is because I managed to convince myself that what was happening wasn't real until such time as I could get sedated so I could sleep. I'm on new meds now, and am actually sleeping which is good. I'm back at work, which is even better as it means I get to be in my home town (my business is based in my home town which is 70 miles from my parents' house). It means I have to commute, but just being there in the environment I want to be in, breathing the air, driving along familiar roads, seeing my park and all the landmarks I know and love felt really good. I'm on good terms with my now-ex partner, and I went to his place to get my computer and some other bits. I actually feel really positive about our relationship (now just friends). I'm desperate to get back to my home town permanently, so need to work out the finances to buy a place on my own. Well, most people probably don't care, but for those who do, I'm sorry I was gone so long. I'm going to try to get back to writing soon, and it's nice to feel able to come back here.