Hi everyone. Not exactly new here, I joined a long time ago, but like writing, I put it to one side, blinked and god knows how many months had gone by. Last year a friend of mine published her first book and I decided that I wanted to write as well. I had a few ideas and thought this would be my year to really get in to it. Oh look, it's July. No excuses about being to busy. I was busy but I didnt make the effort. Now i'm unemployed (just in time for the olympics - what a shame) so now it's just embarassing if I don't try. My problem: Fear of failure. Not just in writing but in lots of things. I have this fear of putting in the effort and having it amount to nothing. My head tells me that doing nothing guarantees achieving nothing but I dont like being told what to do. So today is going to be the day that I kick my own arse and get started. What I want to work on first is actually fair complicated and needs a fair bit of research and planning out, some of which I have done, woo hoo, but I don't want to use that as an excuse to not write. So today, i'm going to write 5 small scenes. Around 200 to 250 words each. I'm hoping that if I write stuff that can be completed and put aside easily I will see that as anchievment and use that to drive me on to putting it all in to the bigger picture. I also want to try and use this forum as a kind of blog to set goals and review progress and even get feedback from other people, as well as advice and hopefully encouragment, because as a billy no mates just moved in to a new area, I dont have anyone for support and again its that failure thing, I dont want to tell people I know that i'm doing this, have them think i'm going to fail and then prove them right. And here we go, stephen 1974 is going to write a book.