I am many things and there are many things I am not and one of those is that I am not an accomplished writer. Language is a foreign language for me. Syntax, grammar, spelling, punctuation... I never fully grasped the formal rules; I just fake it based on recognizing what appears to be acceptable patterns of putting words together to express ideas/emotions. Thank goodness for spell checkers. But sometimes I want to express some thoughts I have and sometimes I want to do it in a manner that at least a few others may find engaging and interesting. That's what leads me to here. About 10 years ago I started a poem inspired by imagery that came to me as I was thinking about what it means to feel the feeling of emptiness. As I struggled to find the words for the poem, I came to realize that I kept writing things that sounded better in prose than poetry. So I began to write a little short story. The story just grew as I wrote it. I got about 30,000 words down that I was feeling okay about but then I hit a creative wall. I can see the story in head but I just can't find the creative juices to work through the process of trying to find the right words to make it a story that might be worth continuing to read. The reason I quit is because I had paused for a little while and then reread what I had written with what seemed like a more detached perspective. I felt like I had hoodwinked myself (okay, deluded myself) into thinking it was well enough done to engage other people enough to make it worth the effort. Actually, it seemed to me then that it was not that good at all. That is the "writers block" that I haven't gotten over for ten years. But now I'd like to finish the story. I just became a grandpa for the first time and I have gotten this itch to finish this story in a manner worthy of least dedicating to my grandson. So, I'm hoping to post the beginning of the story to get feedback that I hope will kickstart the process - or kill my itch to finish it because I'll discover it just isn't that interesting/engaging to others. It might take me awhile to get to the required number of postings to qualify to post the beginning of the novel for review. I'm trying to get to the 20 postings required for that by mostly be doing reviews of others' writings - though I guess coming to this "Introductions" forum now sort of short cuts that path, huh? Let me know if I cause any of you any discomfort in any of my postings. I don't intend to do that, but sometimes my social antenna isn't tuned as well as it should be.