Hi. I hope it’s okay that I discuss some of this here with some of you, I intend to not put down any other writing website but I feel comfortable discussing this here because I was very hurt by some of the comments they have said and wanted some of your opinions on here. This happened from this one writing website, I was discussing with them about me wanting to create a villain in my story by using some inspiration for his physical traits and personality traits based on a real life man that sexually and physically abused me for many many years growing up through my child and teen hood and was just a physical abuser to many others in general. I even told them I do not plan on making him an exact copy duplicate with the same name, same home, same real life background, same exact words, etc. And that I would just add some of what he was and combine it with some of my imagination to create this villain in my fictional story. I did appreciate that some of them were trying to help give me some of advice on whether it's a good or bad idea to use some inspiration from a person who's done some pretty bad and horrible things to me and others and use some of his physical attributes and personality for my villain character, which they told me was a bad idea. But I'm going to be honest. What really got to me was some of nasty and hurtful comments from them that were sort of degrading to me, saying things like.. Saying that "you should run to the police instead". That "you probably don't know this man well enough to know if he did anything wrong for a FACT" That "you might be making a man look bad who you assume has done wrong". (being this was someone I knew most my child hood and young teen hood and could not do anything about it) That "you may think you know the person when in fact you may not really know them or what they really did or can't guess their true motivations". (sexual pedophilia and rape are a serious thing for someone to commit and then deny it happened in real life, which is enough for me to know the real person) "That we can never truly know there intents'. One comment such as "wow you know bad people which is shocking" "you know where the bodies are buried, etc". Even such comments as mentioning I should of sat down and talked with this narcissist pedophilia, physically abusive man after years later as if we were best of friends and even ask him if it's alright if I base some of my character off of him in my story. Or "if"he's really done these things to you". Or "people have been trying to answer your questions, but you seem to have difficulty listening". Or another comment saying "if you haven't experienced these things for yourself you have no right to write about it" When I clearly said over numerous times these things really happen to me. And now I went back onto the site and I’m completely banned from even doing anything. and that hurts more than them telling me I should not base anything on this person in real life because most writers fail when doing it they told me. The comments alone seemed very personal about my real life situation and some took it as a joke or made me think about whether or not I really know him well enough to not make it seem made up or I could be making a good person look worse than he is in real life was the most hurtful things they were saying. And they just ban me from the site. I don't want to criticize another writing site but I TBH I really don;t think I could ever recommend that site to anyone and I feel pretty disappointed they just banned me like that. Especially making comments that insult my past childhood of what really happened between me and this sexual abusing man they know nothing about. I think anyone in this situation if this happened to them would take it very personally. What do some of you feel about this? What should I do about it? I can't even get on the site or log off now and I can't even contact any administrator. Thank you, Btw I really enjoy this site and the level of maturity.