I've been thinking for a while about making one of these instead of just lurking on everyone else's, so here we are. Hopefully it works as motivation! Normally I just yell into the void about my writing, and the void doesn't have very good active listening skills as it turns out. My current projects are: Eerie Pleasant -- An erotic, queer, m/m novella based loosely on the Ballad of Tam Lin. It was supposed to be more closely based on the ballad but I was like ... eh. I'd like to publish this one, but I know it's a pretty niche market, so I'll be content to selfpub it at some point, I think. It's currently at ~34k and about two-thirds of the way finished -- three remaining out of a planned nine chapters, but I'm not sure how that's going to translate to word count, so I don't have a goal per se. Also, I don't know a goddamn thing about erotica or novellas, so I'm absolutely winging this Spoiler: more about Eerie Pleasant Eerie Pleasant is a sort of mirror version of the ballad, where instead of Janet saving Tam Lin from the Fairy Queen, Tam (who is a faun in my version because ... I wanted to) makes it his mission to whisk the main character, a young closeted trans man named Julian, away to the Faerieland to escape his abusive father, who is also a crime lord who wants to marry his 'daughter' off to strengthen an alliance with a fellow Crime Family™. (Listen, I definitely know what I'm talking about, shut up.) The third main character is Alexander, the Crime Boy™ Julian's father wants him to marry, who as it turns out is actually pretty dreamy and not so bad -- and has some hidden depths of his own. Maybe Julian would rather stay in the human world? Maybe he'd rather flee to Faerie? Conflict! Also, just a whole lot of smut. Apostate -- This one is entirely for me. When I'm in a slump writing-wise I like to take one of my established stories/universes and go, "What if this happened instead?" and make AUs for my own projects. Sometimes I end up liking the AU better and it becomes canon, hahah. Not in this case, though! Apostate is going to be too long to be a short story (it's already ~7.5k) but probably not novella length, but it doesn't really matter since I don't think it's marketable. It's just fun. Spoiler: more about Apostate Apostate centers on my guy Ishmael, a very AWOL US Marine who works for this shady, cult-like quasi-terrorist group whose stated goal is to make the world better through any means necessary. Ishmael joins them after being impressed by the cult leader and becoming highly disillusioned with his then-current work for the US government. As he spends more time with the Organization (it's a very creative name, I know), he becomes quite disillusioned with them as well -- something everyone but him could've seen coming -- but he's burned all of his bridges and has nowhere else to really go, so he sticks with it. Besides which, he is actually still strongly under the thrall of the cult leader, Suren. Apostate is a what-if about the circumstances that would cause him to finally lose faith in and turn his back on Suren. A key figure in these goings-on is Angel, a somewhat mysterious young man with some value to the Organization that he doesn't really understand himself. In Apostate, he and Ish meet five years later than they do in canon -- by this point Ishmael is much more jaded and worn down, and Angel has led a significantly different life without Ishmael's protective influence. These are two characters who in canon play a huge role in saving each other from themselves, and I love to see how a similar arc could work out under very different circumstances. Ishmael also has what we can call a complicated relationship with Suren, which I'm going to get to explore in this in a way I haven't in canon. His reverent devotion for Suren is the main thing that's keeping him not only attached to the Org but alive in the alternate universe of Apostate, so breaking that bond and seeing how it affects not only Ish but also Suren, who regards Ishmael as an adored favorite plaything/pet of sorts, is very compelling to me. Love At First Smite -- The fantasy/mystery/romance deconstruction novel I wrote last spring. I did a lot of editing over the summer but ultimately decided that I just needed to completely rewrite the final fifth of it, and due to a combination of one of my betas flaking out on me, my laptop being out of commission for about four months, and some family nonsense, I completely lost steam on it. The 'finished' version was at 98k and after I chopped the ending off, it was down to 80k, so I reckon I've got about 20-25k to make up. It's incredibly daunting. I keep telling myself I'm going to get back to it and I never do ._. Spoiler: more about LAFS LAFS (it has a proper name but I just always call it LAFS now because it amuses me) is in a vaguely medieval fantasy setting with an original magic system -- as original as a magic system can be these days -- and it has two protagonists. One is Merric, a wandering sellsword, and the other is Sham, a powerful wizard. Merric and Sham have what I like to call a meet-ugly, help each other out, and Merric develops something of an infatuation with Sham. This isn't uncommon for him (a massive romantic), but after a while of tagging along with them despite them vocally not wanting him to and claiming to be on some secretive mission, Merric realizes that he shouldn't like them at all. They're kind of objectively an asshole. But he seems to be compelled to stay with them -- it obviously isn't Sham who's compelling him, but it certainly seems to be magic. Anyway, friendship happens somewhere along the way, somehow. That's probably the real mystery, honestly. I've also got this novella beta-named Thalassophobia about a merman sort of on the backburner. I was close to done with it when I realized that I needed to rework the whole thing, decided to just start over, and kind of lost interest. Oh yeah, and because of my obsession with interconnected stories, Eerie Pleasant, Apostate (the canon version, anyway), and Thalassophobia all take place in the same Earth-approximate world. Eerie Pleasant is set in about 1995, Apostate in 2016, Thalassophobia in probably about 2019. Does this matter at all? Nope! Do I love it? Absolutely! Getting back to and finishing LAFS is my ultimate goal, but I do also really want to finish Eerie Pleasant first, because it'll be less nerve-wracking work. Since Apostate is just for funsies, it doesn't really matter if I finish it or not -- I might lose interest and abandon it and that'd be fine. Thalassophobia ... I dunno. ... And I feel like I've talked entirely too much now, so I'm going to stop!