Sometimes, life takes you in the most unexpected of directions. You think that you have everything figured out, and in a matter of seconds nothing seems right anymore. The people you hang out with. The ones you love. Everything is different, and you have no fucking idea why. I guess that’s why they call it an epiphany. You realize something you didn’t before, and as quickly as it was to come to terms with it, nothing is the same. I guess people change without realizing they are different, and that’s why the future is so magically uncertain. For better or worse. I have been thinking about god lately. Not so much whether an afterlife exists, but why we even need it in the first place. Sure, life and death is scary. I get that, trust me. But do we really need to believe that everything is set in stone, biblically. Where is the fun in that? What is the point of doing anything, taking risks, making love, living in general, if someone out there has control of it all. And the same can be said for science. Progression is a beautiful thing, and the search for truth and knowledge is righteous by all means. But if we lose sight of how magical the world is, did we really even gain anything in the end? To put things into perspective, it is as though a part of the world has jumped the gun. I mean, we are going down such a linear road to ruin that we seem to forget the most crucial aspects of being a human. To love, and to be loved. And those small six words should be easy to grasp at, and yet so much hate consumes us all. Jealousy, betrayal, suffering, poverty, disease, war, murder, and the list goes on, forever in the wrong direction. And we all have felt these words in reality, we all know that such injustice should not exist, that these words only hold such great relevance in our lives because we allow them to, but we do nothing to change it. In a world where greed is more profitable than peace, what can a single person do to change it, aside from stating the fact that it is happening. Daily. As it has been since the dawn of man. Maybe im just being petty though. I mean to say that any of this makes sense would be to say that that I have lost all hope in humanity. And maybe that's true, but I like to think there is a silver lining in all of this bullshit, and I just have yet to find it. Yeah, that would be the best thing to say I guess. Just keep trying to be a better person, try to change those around you to be better, and maybe it can reach everyone in the world someday. A better world for all. The kid without any family. The kid who has no food for dinner. The mother who struggles to make ends meet. And the father who just wants to make life bearable for those he cares about. These people deserve a better world, and we can give them that. Someday. Hopefully. But for now, im just a teenager going through college, worrying about my future. And you are just another person amongst billions. Reading.