Hi... I don't know what it is about me, or what in my mind I'm subconsciously emulating, but my books are long. How long? Well, my first book, a Sci-Fi, is 350k words. That is really... really... really long for a newbie. I went and finished it anyway, because I do hold that story very dear to my heart. I have edited it extensively (8 drafts) and I do consider every word in it important, it's just a really long and really complicated story. It took me two years, and now, this style of writing seems to be etched deep in my mind. I'm in the middle of writing my second book and I ran a word-count analysis on it the other day. And what do you know? The length, and the words per chapter, match the exact pattern for my previous book. At this point, it's going to be 350k words as well. Ugh... There is actually a clear structure — which is why I can recognize it. My current book has three arcs, all of which focus on a specific set of characters and their conflict which is simultaneously used to develop my main character as she navigates these arcs, which slowly also solve her own conflict as the clues and information she gathers helps her to do so towards the end. The arcs are very clear, so much that they could be split into three different books (a trilogy!) very easily. But either way, I feel kind of stupid. As in, what am I doing making these long books...? Beyond practicing to become better, I don't think these will really lead me anywhere, even though I do genuinely like what I'm doing with them. I just feel that if I had written books at traditional length, I'd at least have some chance now or in the future to attract agents or publishers. With books this long, I don't think so. I'm kind of answering my own question, but what do you think? I think that my two books will just be for practice and for fun since I have noticed improvement in my skills so I definitely don't see them as a waste. But for my third one, which I already have an idea for, I'll try to keep it traditional length. I get people like J.K. Rowling overcame this kind of thing, but I'm not J.K. Rowling. I'm me.