I am in the process of writing a book (although I'm currently weighed down in world building at the moment) and I'm having trouble with the name of the main character. The problem is that I want to use my name. Now, I am aware of how this can come across as narcissistic, unimaginative, how it might make me sensitive to attacks on the main character, etc, etc, etc - the list goes on. Believe me, I have tried to change the name - but every time that I do it's like putting on a pair of shoes that are two sizes too small. It's doesn't feel right and it ends up being down right painful. I was planning on publishing under a pseudonym (in fact I'm using one now, but not the one I'd publish under), but I'm not sure how far it can go. For instance, my real name will still be on bank cards and the like and unless I go and change my name by deed poll, I'm not sure I can change the names on such items (but I'd be delighted to find out if I could). My story is a personal one, a lot of it is lifted from my life (despite being set in a fantasy setting and an alternate universe). I grant you it's not exactly the same, but the themes of my life are there. Nevertheless, she isn't me - she really isn't. I suppose apart from the name and the hair colour (and some similarities of life that are in the plot) that's all there is; when I imagine her, I do not imagine myself - she is a very separate person. I'm also aware of the problems that can come from authors putting themselves into their books: they put in an idealised version of themselves, polishing off character flaws which leaves them with a very boring and soulless character. My main character has flaws, big ones - I'm very honest in that respect. After all that, my question is this: do you think it would be acceptable for me to use my name? The only alternative I can think of is something that someone else suggested on here, use my name for the draft - but for the final edit, swap in another! How far can pseudonyms' go? Would you let an agent and/or publisher know your real name? Can you change the names on bank accounts, etc? As you may have gathered, I'm quite a private person - so this would be important regardless of whether I end up using my name for the main character or not. Many thanks in advance for your help.