I've been feeling very much trapped in my own mind recently. I have one main project that's on hold indefinitely while I work on a side project to get my mind off things. Lately I've been feeling very conflicted about my narrative topics, and I keep going over various scenarios in my head--I'm just kind of dumping everything in my side project for now, because I feel utterly toasted with my main project. This is not gonna be a full disclosure about my life on my first post, however just a few things: I'm 29 and living and home currently and I've been working on my debut novel for several years now; I was learning the ropes during my early 20s and until like last year really, I've finally found my "routine" and "gotten a hang of things". My literary bio rhythm, just w/e. I don't play video games at all, but I sometimes still watch them for TV viewing purposes. I spend my times instead on MUDs (Multi User Dungeons); which are a lot more Narrativist than graphic MMOs; and likewise tend to be more like Tabletop than Gaming. The reason for this is so I can feel like I'm somewhere else, some fantasy world perhaps, rather than at my desk. They're entirely text based. I can't get into gaming (or even anime really, which I used to completely love) at all anymore. Totally grown out of it. That said, I still like the anime art style, and it did influence me considerably growing up; I'm just saying, for years by now really--more than several--I just can't take it all that seriously anymore. Both gaming and anime, even if they were influential on me back when I was in school. I actually tried college during my very early 20s and completely sucked and failed at it. I have a bad lifelong relationship with Formal Education; and it's been a habit with me since childhood to kind of just teach myself, and ignore my teachers. Temperamental reasons? Well w/e. That's over now, so who care's I guess. I tried it and learned it's not for everyone the hard way apparently. My side project is a Sword and Sorcery novel, whereas my main Project is Sword and Sorcery with more pronounced JRPG and Anime influences. This side project is to destress from that debut novel I've been struggling with for several years and haven't gotten the hang of writing until like this year or w/e. One step at a time. It's kind of like every day I'm tackling a different major piece of the puzzle with whatever literary phase I am going through.