Shit, the sooner you realize that everything is your fault the more harmonious the rest of the relationship will be.
"And another [ingredient for a happy marriage]--In a family argument, if it turns out you are right--apologize at once!" -Lazurus Long
I am sorry for your loss. I think perhaps you're right. He waited till you were gone, to spare you a bit. But I'm sure he was really really comforted to have you there while you could be. You're right, the feelings will be mixed. Relief that his suffering is over, but devastated by the loss. The fact that he's your only family will make it even harder for you. Don't hesitate to ask for help from friends and even from counsellors, if you need it. Take care.
This situation seems perfect for a WF horror. WF leader, Wreybies, has disappeared. The beta mods struggle to control things in his absence. Meanwhile Pinky has risen from the dead and walks amongst us once more....
Somebody to steer the forum back from the precipice of M/M romantic/pulp fiction toward ambrosian plains egc. I see much 19c poetry in my prospectus. Also, no military stories, or horses, or rockets. A new straight edge, I pledge. [@Jannert can stay]
@Link the Writer something's gotten into the squirrels up here too. One nearly peed on me. Little varmint was squatting on a branch about 20 feet up and just let it stream!
I always liked Pinky, but I was never there for the 'dark times'. I only heard whispers, rumors, and that he was banned. As for the squirrels, careful you two.
Now that Wreybies is away... I just wanted to say I totally agree with everything @minstrel says and that I've always thought he was the coolest guy on the forum