*whispers* Just don't tell her about the bunting, ticker-tape, and pyrotechnics we bought for when it happens.
I think this thread is not a Not Happy Thread. It is another Happy Thread only masquerading as a Not Happy Thread. Every time I come here and read things, I just feel so much happier.
Every morning this week, I've felt so many thoughts full of fear and worry. Scared about what the day might bring, scared about the future, scared about everything. They just overwhelm me. The thoughts go away as I work and the day goes on to the point where I'm actually content at night. But these feelings are the same I had in the months after Mom died and I wish they would go away.
Had another fight with hubby yesterday. I feel like I'm slowly losing myself. I'm not who I once was, and it's all my fault. I'm not who I want to be. I feel like I'm failing at everything. I don't want to go to work, but I don't want to be at home. I thought I'd have done something more notable with my life by now. Then I get online and see this: https://www.theguardian.com/books/2020/jul/22/four-year-old-lands-book-deal-poetry-nadim-shamma-sourgen-kate-clanchy and feel extra useless. Bleh.
Your day will come. Which sounds threatening, but I swear it isn't, haha. Just keep going. You'll find your way. -- Had one of the worst nights I've had in a while. Actually got out of bed to deal with the thing I saw coming for me, but it wasn't really there. I wish I could be that brave when I'm not exhausted.
You may indeed be a failure, but don't go by the publicity stunt you linked to. The kid's 'poetry' is crap.
Well, that's about 3 hours of my life I won't get back ...BT Internet just changed the interface of my email without warning. Of course lots of things screwed up during the changeover, including the order I'd organized my folders in. Still can't figure out how to re-send an email. (That option has vanished.) Pain in the ARSE. And the only thing that has improved is apparently I don't have to keep signing in all the time. However, that's simply restoring a feature they took away LAST time they reinvented the wheel. And no, their help function is useless. Things like "have you forgotten your password?" Nothing really useful about the changeover. GRRRRRrrrrr. It's not that I can't get used to it, it's that I'd prefer to do it on my own timetable. Not have it suddenly revamped when I'm in kinda a hurry to get emails done.
My room is bugged in the literal, scary way. Where do these disgusting, multi legged, little fuckers come from damn it?! Just a minute ago I almost had an aneurysm! As I was typing, a brazen centipede came marching full speed on my desk and it was coming toward me. I managed to push back the chair and dodge it on the last millisecond. It jumped! It really tried to attack me! Can you believe it? The little... !!!!!!! Well, it failed and now it's just another blob on a much uncomfortable spot to clean on my wall. I don't know how many of them I've killed this week. I've lost count. They're not the type that bite or can cause harm in any way, but they're so creepy. Yuk! Tomorrow, I'm gonna clean behind every corner of my room and exterminate anything that moves... except for the spiders. Imma take some of them out though. I think it's time I controlled their rising population. On another note, that's it for me: No more alcohol. Not a drop. I'll never, in any occasion, drink tsipouro again. Or whiskey. Or tsipouro and whiskey. Only beer. I'll only drink beer from now on. Beer is good enough.
You need a lizard in the house to eat them. I used to hear quiet little scrabbling noises when I'd go down in the basement sometimes, and I knew there was some kind of animal, I figured a mouse or rat. But then recently I saw it—it's a skink! One of those little-blue-tailed lizards. It was missing part of the tail, but they grow back fast. And they're insanely quick! And suddenly I realized—I haven't seen a spider or a bug in the basement for a long time!! I guess it's eating them. There used to always be spiders.
They're so cute, but I can't get one. It won't survive here, furthermore it would just leave from the window I assume.
I won't wait for the day to witness a stand off such as this. I draw the line hea! Tomorrow is judgement day!
I hate fighting with Wifey, and I understand the emotional identity anxiety only too well. Just remember anything you see on the InnardNet is somebody's bucket of bullshit, it has no meaning other than hype. Keep going with your stories because they are yours!
(march) So I kinda like that new Chicks (née "Dixie") song but (march) I made the mistake (to your own drum) of listening to it twice yesterday (hey hey) and now I can feel it inside (I'm an army) my head I can feel it (of one hey hey) pulsing and crawling and (march march) twisting and turning and devouring my grey (to your own drum) matter like some sort of toxic neoplasmoid THING and I'm hoping I'M AN ARMY OF ONE! that we're operating under the rules of MARCH MARCH MARCH MARCH The Ring and if you watch this Natalie Maines won't come ripping out of my I'M AN ARMY OF ONE! eyeballs next week please please won't you please MARCH!!!!!!!!!!!! Spoiler: Spoilered because it's political, not because it's an earworm
So I guess they dropped "Dixie" because of associations with the Confederacy. Cool. Good thing there's nothing problematic about calling women "chicks."
As a Chick myself, I have no problem with it. They're fine examples of strong women and if you think they're reducing that power because of a name, well, maybe listen to the album in its entirety before passing judgment. Empowerment is about taking back the things other people call you, and I can think of far worse things to be called than chick.
I wasn't passing judgement. I was making an observational joke, mostly at the expense of the PC police. I'm actually a big fan, thank you. Natalie is even from my home town, not that either of us is overly proud of that town.
Found out what a certain abbreviation stands for. Not 'command post' which was on my mental map. It never crossed my mind that there was a different association people would make. And to make it worse, I'd used it somewhere official, though I'd rather not say where. I rectified this as soon as I found out. . Stupid, embarrassed, distressed are just the topmost layer of emotions I'm going through right now.
Ugh...have to get a new car foot, but at least I caught it and took it off before it decided to blow up on me driving down the road. Thought it was off, when it was squishy and the steel belt was starting the poke through. Won't be happy if I have to drive further than town for a replacement, but either way it gives me some time to read.
oh dear lord https://www.devonlive.com/news/uk-world-news/sainsburys-accidentally-angers-karens-tweet-4365563?fbclid=IwAR3tXTYCnWYhYYFq8V-tbCR7NKeD0NLLNkpkAx1rDJooFuSknqeAiSXvyok TLDR for those who can't access (or can't be assed) customer service adviser called karen signs her name at the end of a tweet, someone gets offended because they think shes calling the customer 'a karen'
Thank you for maintaining the dignity of the deaf/hard of hearing folks you mentioned. I am HOH myself, an often overlooked group who seem to be forgotten about in most areas of life.
LOL. Although it seems like the mathematics department at Devonlive may be on furlough currently: 1974+50=??? Yeah, whatever.