I feel like there's this thing I go through with writing (and everything else, really). First, I'll get inspired. I'll write like crazy and a few days later, I'll stop. I don't know if it's because I'm no longer interested or if I got hit with writer's block. I don't know if it's because all previous motivation is lost. All I do know is, I can't continue. I often give up and a few months later, repeat the process. I think I lack the discipline needed to sit down every day and just write. I don't know how to make myself do it. Instead, I clean, do homework, play with the cats, or just stare blankly at Internet web pages like Facebook and DeviantART. I do nothing. I want to write for a living. I really do. I love the idea of sharing the millions of stories I've come up with over the years. But I feel like I want to write for the wrong reasons. I've been told time and time again that there's no money in it. I feel like my goal with writing is more of a fame/fortune goal. Everyone with experience has said, "Don't write for the money." But I feel like that's the main reason for it. I feel like that's the one thing I want to do--it's the one job I want--and getting paid for it feels like the biggest reason behind it. I don't want it to be that way, but it is. It's gotten to the point where I want to give up on writing completely because I feel like I'm not doing it for the right reasons. I've known I wanted to write full time for almost four years. But if writing isn't in my future, what is? I can't imagine doing anything else. So, what do I do? I mean, I don't even like reading all that much! I feel like such an oddball when it comes to writing even though I've been writing for what feels like forever. I don't know how to motivate myself and I often feel like I'm not meant to do it because I like the idea of getting paid for it (and from what I hear, that's bad).