I've been struggling to write for a few years now, and I can't seem to get past it. I can create an outline, build the world, and characters, but as soon as I begin to write the first sentence I can never do it. I can't find the motivation to do it because I feel that it's derivative. I LOVE spy thrillers, especially ones that feature computer hacking. At the time I started writing, it wasn't like it was today, computer hacking was rarely in the news, the average person didn't know what spyware/malware was, and Edward Snowden was still an NSA employee. When the Snowden leaks happened, I thought it was the recharge I needed to get my spy novel off the ground, but I was wrong. Everytime I think about it, I just lose motivation as I think it would just be lost in the shuffle of all the other spy thrillers that came out in the last 3 years. Even my characters are boring and unoriginal.