Hi all, so this is a very personal topic but it is very important so I am seeking some advice to steer me towards the right direction with this. This is going to be long but I need to share every detail to get this right. My first name at birth is Aaron...I've had that name for 20+ years of my life...I've built a reputation and some unique nicknames with it. One unique nickname in particular I really like but it is prone to get used out-of-context sometimes. Also, I've spent a lot of money (probably in the thousands of USA dollars) over the past 5 years getting personalized autographs from my favorite actors and actresses. "To Aaron..." All cool and everything...but what I don't like about Aaron as a name is how commonly overused the name is. I know about 20 Aaron's in my personal life...isn't that ironic? There's Aaron A., Aaron D., Aaron P., Aaron T...etc. I really don't like that about my name, seems cliche. Also, Aaron's name meaning stands for "Mountain of Strength"...nice meaning but I've found that it has become my kryptonite...everytime I reach a high point of success or reach a career accomplishment, something really bad happens. I met my biggest lifetime hero in acting overseas in Europe and back home in the USA my mom passed away very unexpectedly from a brain aneurism...it was so weird because it happened on the exact same day. Started out best day of my life and then I received the news my mother passed away the same day in the evening...absolutely crushed me and knocked the wind out of my sails...polar opposites on the same day. Best day of my life and then the worst day of my life in one. Later on this year I was feeling better and feeling really good about myself in my career and then one day I became super depressed...I barely made it out of that funk alive...I felt like I somehow let my mother down by not spending more time with her because I thought there would always be a "next time". I have a super busy lifestyle with my job (100+ hours a week) and I travel a lot. My mother was always understanding of that. Due to work last year, I missed Christmas with her...first time ever I missed Christmas with my mother...and for some reason I felt like that was going to come back to haunt me and it did because she's no longer here now. I feel so terribly awful because of that. I got so consumed in my career I lost so much time with my family. I learned a valuable lesson from my mother's passing how precious life is and how short it can be. My #1 regret in life is last Christmas...my biggest mistake ever...and that was my mother's favorite holiday of all. Part of me feels like I need to change my first name from Aaron to something else that sounds similar but it doesn't start with an A but with an E. There are parts of my past...my former self...that I don't like...and I want to put those things behind me for good. By changing my name, I think that would make me feel happy. I know from friends and family how my mother loved the name Aaron and how excited she was when I was born. I would never want to disrespect the name my mother gave me but from what has happened since last Christmas because we didn't have it together...2018 has been an absolutely nightmare for me...lost my mother, I had a period of severe depression I barely survived, and I also got into a massive car wreck recently where I barely escaped with my life (my car got totaled and my airbag didn't even go off...defect in my car). I've had such a bad year and they've always happened after I've reached a very high point in my life this year. It's ominous...and I'm sorry to say it...maybe a bit of a curse too. It feels like for me I need to switch my first name. So I have been thinking if I ultimately do switch my name...it would have to sound similar to Aaron but start with E. For personal reasons, I like the letter E a lot and it stands for something to me. I've been considering what spellings are similar to Aaron? Or sound similar? We got Erin, Eren, Eron, Eryn, Erynn. Erryn and so on. Those are pretty much the choices unless anyone else has any ideas that start with E? I am a dude obviously so in your opinion if I switch to an "E" version of my first name...what would be best for a male and why? I'm really not a fan of Eron at all. I think I've narrowed it down to Erin, Eren, or Erynn. If I were ever to switch to Eren, for example, I hope people won't say I did it solely because the lead male protagonist of Attack On Titan has that name; I actually find that kinda cool...it's a name used before the anime came out. I've like the idea of having less common name...hence not Aaron but something with E at the beginning. For whatever reason, I've been drawn to Erynn but I've realized some have pointed out it looks feminine; I honestly don't see it that way 100% but get where people are coming from on that. Tough call on that. Whatever the scenario I love and appreciate all the name meanings each of the "E" spellings have. Ultimately, if you were in my shoes and all things considered, what would you do considering everything? Keep Aaron or switch to an "E" version of my name and, if so, which one and why? Please vote as well. Thank you in advance. This is an extremely important decision to make and I need honest help.