Please. Help me...advice needed

By tarnished · Nov 5, 2009 · 613 · 4
  1. You never know what you got till its gone.


    Oldest saying alive.

    And its completely true.

    I'm 15. I used to live in a suburban, quiet town with several groups of friends. I had one group who was a little immature but fun. I ha one group of friends who was more mature and we were popular throughout the school but that didn't matter. We could care less, we're just us.

    I now live in the city, near boston. I'm a relatively tough kid and I've been in a few fights. I know how to handle myself but I have a soft side. I'm also secretly really emotional.

    Everyone here is having sex and doing drugs. Everyone here is worried about being tough, or cool, or whatever. I hate it. I fit in ok, I have a group of friends who I kinda like and its an ok life. I live with my aunt and uncle and mom while my dad stays in the suburban town. I have the option of moving in with him but I think it would kill my mom to hear that I want to.

    I miss playing tackle football in the snow at the park. I miss having sleepovers and watching movies till 4 am. I miss not talking about how wasted so and so was, and what type of weed is out there. I miss having honest friends.

    I'm in an impossible situation and i think I'm slowly going insane here. I feel trapped and I really want to move back.

    Any advice on how to handle this?

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  1. Robert Lipscombe
    Yes! You have here in your heart, in your head - memories, yearnings, hopes, fears [alternative scenarios playing out in your mind..move in with Dad, leave Mum? etc]; you already sound like a novel in shorthand..so my advice to you is get started now..
    don't try to make up a story just yet, just start talking on the page...but do one topic at a time..description [time, place, people..feeling/event..comment], then on to the next, and the next...you can start in the past, or in the future, and switch about, long as you keep in mind that we need to follow you, and we want you to make us feel things, understand things, want things and fear and hope things just as you do.
    then you might well find tht you are a writer.
    Robert Lipscombe, Nov 5, 2009
  2. becca
    Sounds like a complicated place to be in, in your life. I know you don't want to hurt your mom. What if you talked to your mom about how you feel? Tell her that you miss all of the life you left behind? Mother's want the best for their children. She might understand and help you make this tough choice.

    You could also possibly go back for the rest of the school year, and see how things go.

    Ultimately, you have to make the choice that is going to be the best for you. There are going to be times in your life where you are going to have to make choices knowing that you are going to hurt someone. But, if you let other peoples opinions and feelings hold you back, you could miss out on a lot of beneficial things for your life.

    Take a deep breath, talk to people you can trust, specifically your parents. You might be surprised, your mom might encourage you to go back, if things in your new school and whatnot are bothering you so much.

    *hugs* Best of luck.
    becca, Nov 5, 2009
  3. rottingsmiles
    Gotta go where your heart is man. If you have the option to be where you're happy you should take it.
    rottingsmiles, Jun 29, 2010
  4. JessaNova
    You're just feeling homesick. It's completely normal. How long have you lived in this new area? You need to give it a chance, unless you're happy with living in the same place all your life.
    JessaNova, Aug 21, 2010
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