I want to be an author. I want to see my name on a published book. I want to be able to read it again and again as if I'm just another reader. I don't remember a time when I started writing exclusively. I have written a lot during the years. I have two notebooks filled with short stories, a string of shorts throughout my computer, and I started stories but never finished them.
I looked up writing tips on websites, joined free classes and followed blogs on writing. I joined this forum and received feedback on one of the chapters in my story. I write stories on Wattpad, and before that Quotev, and received feedback and advice. My brother would read some of the stories I write and give me feedback. I've rewritten my stories on Wattpad. I deleted stories from Wattpad and Quotev.
I always thought of writing like free falling, but I could grab on to a ledge for a little bit. Structured writing, but I could start a story with anything and depend on how the words are arranged could make a big difference in a story.
This thought always brings me to a halt in my writing. It feels like I could never find the right words. I tend to get discouraged when I think like this. I know I should keep writing and keep moving forward with it. I'm worried in the end I'll never be able to publish a book or what have you. I sometimes feel like giving up and do something new. I thought about doing something that still has storytelling but it has to do with animation. Every time I think about it, I feel like I'm quitting which is something I don't want to do. I want something solid I could hold onto. Not digitally.
When I grow older, and when I could pay things on my own, I want to hire a mentor that I could see on a daily basis. I also want to start a writing group. I'm forming one currently at my school which hasn't started yet, but I'm working on it. I'm hoping I could be in a writing club in college when I'm done with school (Since this group is being formed on my second semester and I'm a senior). I want to know more people with similar aspirations like me.
I believe I'm getting better at writing constantly (although I do go days without writing but there was a time when I would go months so). I'm also getting better at keeping track with my progress online so I feel more inclined to write.
I'm worried if I'll never be able to publish anything, but at the same time, I'm remaining hopeful. Only because of so many people on here and other websites (like Wattpad) keeps me inspired on writing.
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