Adulthood is a Bleak Tunnel with the Vague Scent of Roses Leading to the End

if you want a Christian's pov? don't do something that will compromise your values. non-Christians might say that too. But you gotta eat. You need a well paid job. Ive been there. ive done it so you might have to do it too.

O.M, life is a mysterious experience, and of course there is and will be struggle. But there is also opportunity awaiting you, and, if you want it, adventure. More importantly, and I say this with respect to you the person, you don't know yet what you are talking about when you project into your own adult life, because the future simply does not exist. Only now exists, and your ongoing need and right to choose.

I agree with @paperbackwriter (!) about the need to keep from compromising your values. Or in another perspective, listen to your heart and follow the path seeks.

Finally, I would add that though you will be giving up your childish ways, try not to lose your childhood sense of wonder. The world is not inherently bleak.

And, you might as well enjoy the journey.

But values change over a lifetime.
At your age 20 i didnt have clear values or boundaries.
it might be worth asking yourself
" what are my values exactly?"
"what do i stand for?"
Otherwise life can suck you into an amoral/immoral vortex. That happened to me. I dont look back with pride at that phase of my life.
Maybe we all need to go through that sinful phase in order to mature.
Ideally we can skip it ☺

re sinful phase.
that actually lasts all your life. your old sins get swapped for new ones. like a relay race at each stage of your life.
i think i mean in fact the "prodigal son " phase. I got really attached to this phase and havent shaken it off yet