Well, I guess I set myself up for this. I was just so happy to be writing again, and so happy to be figuring out the revision process that I think I was just a little too enthusiastic. I didn't anticipate the negative feelings that ultimately happen when you get a good (and honest!) critique.
It's all good. It's all ok. I'll have more vacations, and more opportunities to write. Somehow I'll find a way to rework this story that has given me computer neck and occupied my thoughts and even caused me to wake up in the middle of the night with a new idea or a new scenario.
So even though I'm feeling now like the world's worst writer, I'll pick up the pieces and get it together. It's part of the growing pains of learning to write well, and write something worth publishing, and if I don't develop a tough skin, I'll never succeed.
I just wish it didn't hurt so much, or that I wasn't battling these feelings that all I'm doing is wasting my time, that I should just stick to what I already know, that I'll never amount to anything except being a mom and holding a steady job. How do you fight off these demons that whisper in your ear?
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