I Fail WF and Everyone

By Leaka · Apr 27, 2009 · 606 · 11
  1. I've failed WF to the point where everyone just thinks I'm this person.
    This person of disrespect and arguments.
    This person whom they think is rude.
    I fail this world because I don't push myself any further then what I am.
    I'm afraid of socializing with people in the real world, I have had to much experience of becoming attached and then being kicked in the backside.
    It seems I face the same problem I do out there in here as well.
    Someone I really admired become another person. And I no longer admire this person, I saw their darker side.
    I saw a side I didn't want to see.
    I wanted to believe in this person and couldn't. They were just like the others who pushed and ignored me away.
    I only small amount of people whom I think truly understand me. Truly are my friends.
    I don't understand what I am doing wrong.
    And I don't understand why everything has to be a popularity contest.
    Another great person I admired just slipped out to the sites.
    Everyone hates him, but I know he's a great man.
    If he weren't he wouldn't protect me.
    So this man is the man I'm suppose to truly admire until he stabs me in the back to. I cannot give myself to people because they all stabbed me in the back.
    I cannot talk to people here or even out there because they'll hurt me. And I'll know that I'll get saying this as well.
    Stop being whiny, stop being emo.
    But I'm not.
    Cannot someone just have a moment where they feel like crap. Cannot someone just express them myself emotionally.
    I'm lonely like I am out there, I'm lonely here. I feel I'm not respected the way I should be. I feel everyone hates me.
    So if everyone hates me, and I cannot do anything about it. Nothing for forgiveness, nothing for friendship, nothing for them to understand me.
    Why am I even here?

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  1. LordKyleOfEarth
    You are here because you don't actually believe the stuff you posted? Or maybe you are trying to prove to yourself, one way or the other, so you toss out a line and see what happens.

    For what its worth, I don't feel like you have failed me.
    LordKyleOfEarth, Apr 27, 2009
  2. Sound of Silence
    It's our flaws, not acheivements, that make us human.

    So, for what it's worth, you haven't failed me either.
    Sound of Silence, Apr 27, 2009
  3. lessa
    Leaka, I feel like I have failed you.
    We were talking and then my health went bad
    and I disappeared.
    Well my health is getting back to my normal so
    when you feel like talking venting or just need to
    speak to someone pm me any time.
    It is not you who fails.
    It is society itself who don't realize that not everyone
    is made the same.
    It is our differences that make us interesting.
    I am 53 soon to be 54 and I still don't fit in well for long.
    So be yourself and you will find a few friends and probably
    a best friend who could be your soul mate.
    From one misfit to someone who feels like a misfit but isn't
    it can and will happen.
    luv and hugs.
    lessa, Apr 27, 2009
  4. lessa
    Leaka, I feel like I have failed you.
    We were talking and then my health went bad
    and I disappeared.
    Well my health is getting back to my normal so
    when you feel like talking venting or just need to
    speak to someone pm me any time.
    It is not you who fails.
    It is society itself who don't realize that not everyone
    is made the same.
    It is our differences that make us interesting.
    I am 53 soon to be 54 and I still don't fit in well for long.
    So be yourself and you will find a few friends and probably
    a best friend who could be your soul mate.
    From one misfit to someone who feels like a misfit but isn't
    it can and will happen.
    luv and hugs.
    lessa, Apr 27, 2009
  5. Speedy
    How can Mrs Butterworth EVER fail?

    Your not perfect, nobody is!

    Enough said really. Just don't take "others" opinions too harshly. You are yourself, so just be yourself no matter what.
    Speedy, Apr 27, 2009
  6. Mercurial
    I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, Leaka. If you feel this way so strongly, it is not you who have failed us; it is we who have failed you.

    You have certainly not failed me --what chance have you had to? We've rarely engaged in conversation for whatever reason. I hope that I have not failed you in turn, and if we have, do please explain to us what we can do better; it's obvious we are just not getting it.

    Whether you 'fit in' or not is not the problem here, and it never should be. Everyone deserves to fit in and have a place where they feel comfortable and accepted. If this is not that place for you, then we have not only failed you, but we have failed ourselves as caring human beings.

    If, however, you wish for others to see you as someone who isnt rude and doesnt start arguments and isnt emo, then no one can change that but you.

    Speedy's right. Always be who you feel you were born to be and do what you feel is right for you --not for others.

    -Merc
    Mercurial, Apr 28, 2009
  7. Leaka
    I think when I first started failing WF was when I said that mean thing to a person on the forum. But of only self defense they were mean to me first. Then everyone just left me alone, no one wanted to be with me any more. They convicted me like I was the bad person. But that person was rude and disrespectful to me.
    And then I went to where that person disrespected me first, they had the power there. And you knew off the bat they didn't even want me to get a chance. They banished me without warning, without asking me anything. They banished and convicted me. When I was the one disrespected first. I failed WF because I could never do what the ones said in power wanted. They want to banish me too. They want to banish all because of one thing. I'm not so good with meaning and sometimes it comes off as rude or being aggressive. But only cause what sounds normal in Greek doesn't in English. I fail WF because they want to banish me and only one person is stopping them. A person everyone hates too. Everyone was throwing fire and rocks at their name. And I know they are the best person in the world. Because if they weren't they wouldn't stop the others from banishing me. I'm hanging off a thread here on WF. And because of that thread I'm isolated.
    Leaka, Apr 28, 2009
  8. lessa
    so tie another thread to that one.
    make it stronger and then tie another
    to it.
    keep making the thread stronger and
    you will become stronger.
    then tie the thread to that of a friend.
    I have been banished so many times and
    it hurts more each time but I always seem
    to find a way to come back
    a bit different a bit more wary but hey
    the human race is stuck with me.
    so tie the thread to mine and see what we
    can do.
    You might be surprised what an old disable lady
    and you can accomplish.
    lessa, Apr 28, 2009
  9. Castlesofsand
    Be yourself. it's who you are.

    You can't be a failure, you haven't finished living yet, so how can you know?

    Life moves on, regardless of pain, move on with it. Words spoken rashly shouldn't be considered for they are emotionally based. You are talking about it, so you must want to heal that wound.

    I wish you well, remember your strengths.
    Castlesofsand, Apr 28, 2009
  10. yellowm&M
    You haven't failed us Leaka
    liked the others said, if you feel that alone and isolated then we've failed you
    For what it's worth I really like having you around
    yellowm&M, Apr 29, 2009
  11. yellowm&M
    You haven't failed us Leaka
    like the others said, if you feel that alone and isolated then we've failed you
    For what it's worth I really like having you around
    yellowm&M, Apr 29, 2009
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