i've just discovered my biggest flaw :(

By Brightsmiles · Apr 16, 2009 · ·
  1. i was down stairs and discovered my stash of old stories hidden away in a box of folders, the material dating 6-11 years ago. this might not sound that big of a deal, but when you're 23, it is! i sat down and read through it all, the pieces varying in length, view points, genres and draft stages. i could tell instantly how much i'd improved (yay for me!) but at the same time i wanted to cry. i was absoloutly crushed. i went back upstairs, flicked on my lovely pink laptop (oh yeah, its pink!!!) and read through my work from these last few months (my first lot since i stopped six years ago)

    it was absoloutly passionless. there's no heart in any of it. i'm writing a love story that has no heart, and you can feel it.

    i'd always thought my weakness was in cluttering my work with descriptions - so i worked at it and made it better, leaving SPAG as my main offender (which you can probably tell by this post ;) ) It wasn't until i'd had something else to compare my current stuff with that i realised the state it was in!

    It was easy to connect with my old work and feel the emotion behind the words but a robot may aswell be writing my latest stuff - at least it would get the spag right! i know a lot of stuff has happened over the last few years, and i've been working on not being so emotionally distant from the family and friends around me, but i honestly didn't realise how badly this had affected all of me - even my writing.

    so now i'm feeling motivated to try harder to express myself and let myself feel things in everyday life... if its showing this badly in my writing, i shudder to think what i've been showing physically to the people around me. i even called my mother to talk... but she didn't answer the phone... but hey, i get a point for trying right?

    anyway - moral of todays story - i thought i knew my flaws as a writer but i was wrong. my personal life DOES have an affect on my writing style (as much as i hate to admit it)

    AND

    better me = better writing.

Comments

  1. Castlesofsand
    i never look back at my old pieces, never save them. the person who was, is now not, life experiences change your writing, experience in writing changes your writing.

    you worked hard it seems to improve the way its written, now its easy to put your emotions in, the foundation is already there.

    good writing to you
  2. Neha
    aww *hugs*...but take comfort from this, at least you have 6 years to excuse yourself with-the other day I was wincing over works done not 6 months ago! All the best with your writing.
  3. Brightsmiles
    thanks guys!

    castlesofsand - i was shocked cause i thought i was putting emotion in! lol. ah well, i'd rather find out now then later down the track when i was showing everyone!

    neha, if you're already wincing, it means you've already improved - awsome!
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