The not happy thread

Ah well I hope you get it..touch wood, and Keep Calm and Carry On! And besides at least you have a back-up plan.

 

I feel lonely without you too. Don't worry sweetie, i'll be working there next week so we'll spend loads of time together x

 

I've been given four months to do a dissertation from scratch. Week 1, tutor on holiday. Week 2, tutor took 6 days to respond to my suggestion for a topic and slammed it.
Week 3, spent most of the time in tears wondering what the h*** to do now. Week 4, spending most of the time in tears wondering what the h*** to do now.
I can't fail but I don't see how I can possibly do this.

 

Oh, and a partial I submitted to an agent on 4th December 2008 came back yesterday, rejected.
At least they told me. Eventually.

 

Somehow...even though I KNOW I told the copier to duplex...it didn't. I didn't notice until 67 copies of the 18 page document were printed. That gives me even LESS time to make my copies. I am going home in 5 minutes and I JUST started it over. I need to make 300 copies. Thank GOD tomorrow is Friday...oh...and trees...forgive me.

 

I am really fed up with baby name talk and last night it had me in tears. It just feels like far too much pressure at the moment to come up with a girls name and at the moment, I don't need the added pressure. I really hate having no control over my emotions...

 

aw torana! =( I dunno how far along you are - based on your picture i'm going to guess about 5-6 months? you still have a good amount of time- plus the hospital gives you three days after your child is born to still think of a name. don't worry about it you have enough on your plate, just let it come naturally, hear names and let it come to you =)?

 

Gah, I have terrible, terrible nausea.

Stupid stress, destroying my inner-balance.

 

I'm only 4, nearly 5 months. That photo was taken 2 weeks ago roughly and I'm definitely bigger now. My clothing doesn't fit anymore. I miss wearing my favourite jeans and tops!

I will just avoid baby name conversations till we find a name WE want. Thanks TJ, it is really appreciated!

 

My lady time started today and I'd very much like to cut the bottom half of my body off please. Oh, and my head. I can feel a headache coming on...

 

I just got a call --Grandpa suffered a stroke last night. Mom said he is in ICU, but he is stable.
To be honest, I'm not surprised. This man has untreated lung cancer and has been on an oxygen tank for the last ten years. It still astounds me to see an 85 year old man unhook himself from his oxygen tank to smoke a cigarette; it's an unforgettable sight.

I feel really bad, because I'm really not worried for him; I dont really like him. But I'm scared, not for him but for my mom. She's been in a really unhealthy state lately, and if anything happens, she's going to lose it.

 

aww...Merc..*huggles*


That's all I can say, wish I had more to say.

 

I'm sorry to hear that mercy, I hope he's alright for the sake of your mum, and that the whole ordeal doesn't cause too much stress to your family or make you worry about the effect it's gonna have on them.

*big hugs* x

 

Thanks, guys. I wish I had a car, but I dont, and the city bus doesnt come out this far, so I get to sit here and wait.
Apparently his blood pressure was off the charts --250 over 130 or something. And the stroke was on the right side of his body --it's typically on the left, and he's got some internal bleeding from his brain, so nobody knows what to do.

 

Positive thoughts for you and your family, Mercy.

 

My friend Mamacita is having bypass surgery today. Fingers crossed. Prayers. Good thoughts.

 

Merc, I'm really sorry darl. I hope he is out of ICU soon. Lots of healing hugs sent your way.

Carmina, I will keep your friend in my thoughts, I hope all goes well. Big hugs to you!

 

I hope she's alright. Also, and at the risk of being a little rude here, is her name... actually... Mamacita?

And thanks, Cog and Tor. We had a scare; a few hours ago he had a heart attack, so at least he was in the right place for it and is all right. He is still in ICU, sleeping right now, I imagine. Again, he's considered stable.

Hospital staff has said that if there are no more adventures like that attack, he will be allowed to leave in about four days. He's already showing significant progress and can move his fingers and is actually talking a lot (albeit slurred)! We're hoping for the best.

My expectations were very low this morning; he's a very aged man, and we were all very scared. Thankfully, the prognosis at the moment is optimistic. I'm allowed to see him tomorrow.

 

Merc, you will be surprised how strong people actually are when they are so ill. My mother has an illness and considering what her illness is doing to her body, and the damage the medications are doing to her body, she is one of the toughest woman I know! If he is already doing that well after having a stroke and a heart attack, try not to worry too much, sounds like he is stronger than you all think.
Hugs to you and best wishes to your grandfather. I hope that he keeps recovering at a steady rate and is home in four days. I will keep him in my thoughts.

 

It's five am. I haven't slept well. Need I say more?

 

that make two of us. men really are extreamly confusing. i don't know what to do and i am very lost so i am pissed

 

I'm home from an amazing weekend. And that's always depressing. My house is a total buzzkill.

 

I have to work at 5 am tomorrow......ugh.

 

I got a 3 mile run and 2 hour workout tomorrow a 6am. The Marine Corps is the greatest thing ever.

 

This girl, one year ahead of our batch, from our rival school died the day before yesterday. Apparently her T.B turned to cancer and chemo made it even worse.

Makes me sad, an innocent life going wasted like this...is there no justice in the world?

May her soul rest in peace.