The not happy thread

Rob Ford won the election for Toronto's mayor. He's awful.

 

I am SO screwed.

I need a stranger.

 

What?! *calls 911* wh-what happened?

 

No, not that kind of screwed. It's... complicated.

 

Oh. Alright.

 

Whatever happened, Emily, I'm really sorry. Normally I'd offer my support (although I suppose I'm not necessarily a stranger?), but I dont think I'm in the best of sorts right now. Good luck, and I really hope things get better for you. I'm sorry that whatever happened, happened.

I've just begun to deal with some long-standing issues of mine. It's been painful. I feel very... I dont know. Unidentifiable. I know that maybe in the end it might be for the best (or who knows? Maybe I'm making an awful mistake), but right now it's just sucktastic.

 

I'm in that boat too. It sucks. Not being able to identify exactly what's wrong with you, but knowing that something really is.

 

Oh, no, I know exactly what's wrong. I just dont want to deal with it. I have spent so much of my time believing in my safe fairytales that dealing with the reality is a bit... difficult. I keep hearing that this is the right thing to do, but the more I deal with what's wrong, the more angry I become. How I feel about everything, as a whole, is what is unidentifiable.

I'm sorry you arent sure what's wrong with you though. Sometimes it just feels like something is missing... I always feel that way come December; it really is miserable.

 

* ENORMOUS HUG *

Mind if I pass by when I visit the US? I mean, that might still take a while, but it'll happen- and then I can give you that hug.

Feel better, Ems.

 

Thank you Lyd. I need it.

I wish I could tell you all what's going on.. but it's just too difficult to put into words at the moment. I'm not dying, though, so don't worry too much.

 

Well, if you ever feel like throwing it out anyway, my inbox is always open.

 

We're all with you, Emily. No matter what happens.

 

Thanks love. I may just take you up on that. Today's been.. interesting.

Link I would like to hug you right now.


Things with the issue are somewhat better (as in not as awkward and I stopped shaking and I didn't have a total spaz out) but the issue still exists.

 

Why do I always make a mess of things?

It's pretty much guaranteed.

 

So I can help you clean it up.

 

I've never had the thought of losing somebody make me cry uncontrollably for a half hour. For some reason though, today the mere thought of something happening to Ray, or God forbid him doing something to himself, made me sob.

Scary stuff.

 

Do you need to borrow some cleaning supplies?

That's happened to me before. I hope your feeling better now.

Edit: I finally called to make a doctor's appointment about my lovely lady issues, and the earliest appointment? DECEMBER 14TH. Seriously?? Also, it took like fifteen minutes for them to answer the phone. I find this a little bit alarming, but it's one of the only gynecologists I can go to...boo.

 

...Ew. That long? Why on Earth?

So, my friend is currently undergoing her long-and-desperately-needed break up with her boyfriend who's admitted to thinking of cheating on her for the past four months. That's good news. The bad? I hate seeing her this miserable and torn up. I allllllmost wrote this to her (hopefully by the end of the night) ex-boyfriend, but decided not to send it just in case it came back to bite me later.

Warning! Mature language and cussing in the box below.

Spoiler

Look, I don't like stepping in the middle of other people's business, but this isn't right.

I honestly don't know what you're doing to Steph, but cut it the **** out. Destroying her like this is killing her. You're supposed to love her, for ****'s sake! This isn't love, it's torture to her. The amount of psychological damage you're causing will only haunt her for years down the road, and don't you think she's got enough of that with what she went through with Robert?

Steph is sincerely the sister I wish I had, and to see her getting beaten into the dirt by your actions because you can't control your second head is really p****** me the **** off. Use your head! Do you really think she's cut off your d*** or shoot you in the head if you cheated? She didn't to Robert, but, granted, if you did, you honestly deserve such a punishment. Real love doesn't involve cheating, and it certainly doesn't involve thinking of it, or being 'scared' of your own partner.

So, really, you need to stop. Either be a cold-hearted b****** and break up with her so you can go **** a few random b****** and pick up some STDs, or suck it up, love her like you're ****ing supposed to, and make this right.

So there's that.

Add in my random back pain, sad face at my bank account, and the so-unflattering break-out on my face, and meh. I'm crabby tonight.

 

No idea. Pretty ridiculous, right?? I'm hoping it's just because I'm a new patient, and after I start going it will be easier to get appointments.

It's pretty sh*tty, though, because the reason I'm going is because I suddenly started having excruciating, heinous periods, so it looks like I'll likely be missing work two more times before I'll get to see a doctor about this...lovely.

My sympathies to your friend. Breakups are always difficult, but I've found that breakups with heartless bastards are usually worse. Giver her a hug from me (if that's not too creepy) and reassure her that while things totally suck now, if she gives it time, they'll be better than she could have dreamed of.

Incidentally, I admire your restraint in not sending that. A friend of mine was going through an interesting time with her boyfriend once, and I sent him an email that kind of messed things up, between them and between me and my friend. Typing out our feelings in these situations can make us feel better, but I've learned that sending them isn't always the best idea.

 

It's 3 in the morning. I'm listening to Pandora radio working on my art project. The song "Tonight" by FM Static comes on. I know the song is about a girl who gets abducted and murdered, but the entire part about him/her not wanting to live without her, and needing her, made me start to cry.

Why?

Because I don't want to leave. I can't want to leave. When I think of one of my friends in particular, and the idea of leaving her, it messes me up, and I just feel awful inside.

 

Watching last night's News Night report on US political funding is making me unhappy.

 

Does this mean you decided you're going to move?

 

My poor Fallout 3 file. My poor character, Mike Wolfletter. Level 18...very good karma...a literal walking tank...

I saved it over with a new level 1 character! AAGGHH!! DX This is why I never have more than one character. I always delete the perfect characters.

I'll never learn either. I did the same exact thing with my 99% completed Red Dead Redemption file, and did that to an Oblivion character a time or two.

*sighs*

 

I don't really have a choice in it anymore.

 

[rant]

Spoiler

Do yourselves all a favor and never order from Skullcandy again. I used to really like their customer service, but it seems like the whole company has gone downhill these past few years. I still stay with them because I wear my headphones out easily from overuse and they have a lifetime warranty which allows me to get new pairs for free when my current pair starts malfunctioning, but if there was another company that had the same deal, I'd switch to them.

A pair of my headphones lost their sound signals from both ears three weeks ago; the next day I filed a warranty claim and shipped them back to headquarters (I had to pay shipping, which, given the fact that I'm getting the new set of headphones for free, didnt bother me) and within two days, I received an email saying that they had arrived in Utah. Despite this, it took about a week for Skullcandy to send me a store credit receipt (which I didnt ask for on the claim; I asked for them to just send me a new version of the same pair --this resulted in me having to pay an additional $2 in shipping; not a horrible deal, but still. It's the principle). I charged the store credit to an order that very day and it's been two weeks and I havent received the package.

After a week went by, I called customer service to let them know that I hadnt received a tracking number, which should have been sent minutes after my purchase, and could they please check to see if my headphones had been shipped yet? I was told by two separate people that it had been shipped the day after I placed my order and that it would be delivered to my address any day now. Even though they had the utmost confidence, one person actually said to me, "If you dont get it by mid-November (I placed my order on October 14th), just call us back and we'll send it again."

Great, so I can wait another goddamn month?

I called back again and the guy on the line said that the model I ordered had been discontinued the day after I purchased it and thus, contrary to what I had been told by two other service reps, had never even been shipped.

You think they'd catch something like that. But no, I had to call on three separate occasions and on the final time get an honest response. Had I not called, I probably never would have gotten my order.

This guy on the line was nice about it (even though I'm sure I, rightfully, sounded like a bitch) and we both hopped online to see the models that were still being sold. When I wasnt happy with the models that were in my price range (pink and this ugly white print color), he upgraded me to a more expensive pair that I was somewhat happy with --they're still super ugly-- without charge, and said they'd be in tomorrow's mail, which means hopefully I will have my package by Tuesday or so. Still, I have my doubts...

I've gone three weeks without music. I do a lot of walking on campus and like to listen to music when I work out. I like to listen to music when I fall asleep. I like to listen to music when my roommate wants silence. I'm really pissed with the company.

/rant