The Not Happy Thread

I am so so very sorry. Not that it helps (at all) but when children have epileptic seizures that young they can often outgrow them. There may be hope.

My thoughts are with you.

 

That sounds bad. But don't be too down, your grandmother may be calmer and happier in a home, it's lucky they caught your neice's epilepsy early so she can get the correct treatment, and although I work I never have enough money, so you're richer than me in one way at least--you have the time to write.
I'm being a right annoying little Pollyanna, I know...

 

Woah, how can you cope with that amount of sleep?!

Sorry to hear that. At least they caught the epilepsy early so they can help her. Hopefully being in a care home will help your grandmother.

As for the unemployment issue, I'll be Pollyanna-ish, like madhoca, and say at least you haven't been unemployed for two years... or three years... or seven years... or, well you get the idea.

 

Not sure that I am, actually. If I start talking crazy let me know (if you can tell the difference).

I so need a nap. *yawns*

 

Naps are amazing. You should definitely take one!

 

Wish I could. Can't leave the kids by themselves, I'm not that kind of momma. Of course, I don't know how great I'd be in an important situation at the moment, but at least I'm here... lol.

 

Ugh. Oh, COME ON! Chill the **** out! Whatever...

Ah, I feel better.

Edit: Not talking to you guys. Lol.

 

I've been mad a lot lately for no reasson

I play guitar and then i want to kick the amp

I'm on the forums i want to yelll at every one

I am asleep and wake up, with me just full of anger at nothing

its really starting to mess with me ugh

 

That's a feeling I've had and it's not one you should be ashamed of. If you're angry, chances are you're angry at something. You have a reason for feeling that way. I'm a Buddhist, and the Buddhist way is not to run away from bad feelings, or to judge oneself for them, but to accept them and confront them. What is your anger saying to you? Don't be violent, but accept it as a part of yourself. You're not going to get rid of those feelings, so you might as well face them.

 

I concur! I myself am studying the Buddhist methods and that's exactly what we should all do.

Confront the fears and other emotions, accept them and deal with them.

 

Okay so I'm in this situation and I'm kind of scared and not sure what to do.

I was putting away dishes, and when I opened my top kitchen drawer, I saw what I'm pretty sure is a small roach. I have an immense phobia of roaches and slammed the door shut again.

What if there's more? What if there's a bigger one somewhere?

Now, I'm already moving out pretty soon. The contract ends in like a week and then I've got arrangements of where I'll be...but I have to deal with this right now......I just live with a roommate and she's gone right now.....what do I do? Aaaarrrgggh.

 

^That's pretty creepy. Maybe you could let someone come over who can check if there are more? At least that way you won't be alone.


Petty complaint here... It's hot and I have to study and it's soooooo boring. At least I still get to paint an egg tonight. /totally grown up

 

I am currently Nerd-Raging myself.

I FINALLY get my copy of portal 2 yesterday after fixing my car. Which made me extremely happy(being a gamer nerd haha), I play a good chunk of it with breaks to watch TV and do homework, which is just fine. Its getting late so I turn my console off go to bed, wake up this morning decide to play some and I get the true Red Ring Of Death.... First time my console ever get its and its now...
For those who don't know what the RROD is, its the Xbox360 BlueScreen of Death. What it means is there is some sort of general hardware failure. From my research seems to mean that thew GPU has come loose.

 

Ugggh! That sucks so hard. Send it in, it won't take *too* long. Better than tinkering with it yourself and voiding ****. I just walked past Portal 2 in Best Buy and quivered. Want! Want!

 

So, here's the deal. I bought a new used car and just finished getting everything legalized yesterday. Today, I manage to get a flat tire, bust a good amount of the metal underneath trying to jack it up, bend the hubcap, and break the rods that connect to the back end. It's just my luck. So, as you can imagine I'm not having the best day today.

 

Just spent 30 minutes trying to unblock the sink I unblocked yesterday. God only knows what my sister does to it to get so much gunk blocking it up.

 

Was it the kitchen sink? Mine at my uni house was blocked, might still be, and I was amazed how plunging with my hand made the water drain. Anyway, how could she have blocked it so quickly?! Next time it gets blocked, you should get her to unblock it, maybe she'll be more careful what she puts down the sink then.

 

It takes between 1 and 2 months to get it back, and even then it may be a referbished one they just wanted to get rid of. Also mine is so far out of warranty its not even funny. Mine is a second gen console, right after they "fixed" the first gen red ring problem.

 

A friend of mine just died...

I had never gone through the death of someone close to me and... I don't know how to react. I'm so so so sad right now. I only wish it wasn't true but...
I can't even cry even when I want it so badly, because I feel that if I do it, there won't be a way for me to deny it anymore.
I don't understand anything. I feel my mind is closed and nothing can go in just as nothing can go out.
Is that normal?
I feel I've been marked. Nothing will be the same from now on. At least, untill I am grown up enough to be able to overcome it and go on.
Tomorrow I will have to go to the funeral... but I don't know what I am gonna do. How will I face it? How will I face my other friends that must be feeling just as terrible as me right now?
I just... don't know...

 

I am so sorry for your loss. When you lose someone it takes time for it to sink in. What you are feeling is normal. Do you have someone you can talk to?

 

I'm so sorry for your loss... I lost my very best friend in high school... Even though it has been a few years, I still don't know what to think. I still sometimes pretend it isn't true. You're not alone in how you're feeling. And no one can tell you it's okay. It isn't. And it won't be.

But if you want to talk or vent, my inbox is open.

 

so a few weeks ago, I went to new york. Small town country girl me. in new york. one of my dreams finally realized. So thats pretty awesome. And when I got back, my ma went out of town. My brother decided to finish off this amazing week by throwing littl;e party. he picked up a friend of ours and brought her back to our place. Now im not much of one for alcohol. ive seen it ruin lives. But i decided to be dumb and drink a little. and i mean a very little. id had a couple of drinks of vodka when my brother went outside for a smoke break. now my friend had been guzzling alcohol. she went outside with my brother and apparently she got loud. our neighors (whom i hate with a passion) called the cops on us. told them it was an "underage party." wow. some party. three kids. yeah. three. even the cops couldnt believe they had said it was a "party." so anywys. by this point my friends is throwing up her stomach on our living room floor (yeah. took forever to clean up) and i knew i was in deep trouble. i told them i had been drinking and blew on the breathalyzer test. i got .000. yeah. nothing. so i got off without a ticket. my brother got two. one for underage dinking and one for procurring minors with alcohol. my friend got a ticket and a ride to the hospital. so going from new york to cops busting up my "party," was kinda sucky. thought the cops did say we were very well mannered
Lets just say im done with alcohol. for good. even when i am of age.

 

Thank you so much... I'm sorry about your loss too.
I keep feeling worse and worse as the minutes pass.
I don't think I can talk about it just yet. Maybe after tomorrow I can cry and talk openly, but now, I don't understand anything and I don't believe it...

Edit:

@ Thris: Thank you too.
Yes, I have people to talk to. It's just that I can't do it in this moment.

 

It may be a while before you can talk about it. Don't push yourself. It's one of the worst things in the world...

 

This feels like a petty complaint, but, honestly, I'm so tired of being me.

That sounds weird. But I am. I'm tired of dealing with my own brokenness. I'm tired of hallucinations and anxiety and paranoia and insomnia and exhaustion. I'm tired of constantly waiting for people to bail out of my life.

I'm just exhausted from dealing with myself and trying to make things better and make myself more normal. Not in an "I'm just like everybody else" way but in an "I can function like a human being" way.

I just wish that I could spend one day just being ok and not having to worry about any of it.