The Not Happy Thread

^Yeah, I agree, but it's time and a half. Perks, right? I've a five hour shift. Not so bad, I guess

 

*Sigh* I miss the old days.. the days i actually got on Xbox live because of my friends and actually had fun on it. Me and my other friends from diffirent states would play together on Halo and Modern Warfare alot and we used to screw around on those all the time. We all made machinma and parody videos and we watched them together as a group as we all showed each other's work and laugh. I remember the days when we were in the best clan ever and it lasted almost a year, and after that fell apart we still had a good time. Now, most of them have deleted thier machinmia and stop-motion work, and we hardly get together all in one game anymore. I got to play with one of them last month on Black Ops but it just wasn't the same. We are all friends on facebook and skype but i feel like we lost that gaming feel to everything. Late 2007- to late 2009 was the most enjoyment ive had in my life besides my actual life in 2008. Other then that, those days i could relive forever and ever. We still occasionally make jokes and stuff and play together, but it's not very long. That and my next-door neighbors, all those people were the ones who made my life most enjoyable. Now everytime i get on xbox nobody is online and all my school friends invite me into a party, sure we have fun, but theres always somebody to screw it up. Me and my state friends had these problems, but they would always apologize to each other. I just can't deal with Middle School Xbox drama. I want to screw around with people that don't care about how you do things- you just free roam and screw around. Most of my school friends are whiny noobs at times... *sigh* they are no fun most of the time I hope me and my state friends could have a revival. i miss those days.

 

One of my friends just put up on facebook that a local woman has had a "vision" of another earthquake on the 28th September.

I'm really annoyed. It's just moon-man fear-mongering again; the people of Christchurch don't need to be getting scared because of people with stories like this.

 

Thanks.

True. Oh well, I have no desire to get drunk anymore, at least not to solve my problems anyway.

Depends on what you mean by attachment. Clingy? No. But attachment in terms of wanting to spend time with them and making sure you show that then that's good. I think you need to do that to keep people in your life otherwise they'll think you don't care.

 

Problem number 7 billion with the Tories being the largest party in the Commons: I'd really rather like to intern with an MP, but all of the opportunities I find are with Tory MPs (of both blue and yellow flavour).

 

Ah I've been feeling rather angry lately. I mean, I'm usually angry at a lot of things, but my friends in particular are starting to piss me off. I could go on and on with examples, but that's not important. It's just that lately I've been feeling inadequate, stupid, too over-compulsive, much worried about how I'll pay for college which brings me back to inadequate as I want to apply for an ROTC someday, and lonely. In a nutshell, this is probably just a bad week.

-o-

 

The more I go through and more I think about it seems that's really common for people in their late teens- mid twenties. It's a time when you're trying to define yourself as a person and life makes that a hard task.

I've been going through it myself. I try my best to surround myself with people who affirm me and encourage me. Not negative people who want to tear me down or hinder me.

My whole life was about my tumor for so many years. Now that it's "over" (as much as it can be with the collateral) it's hard to remember who I even am! I was a patient for so long. So now I'm trying to find myself again and be sure of who I am.

Know that you're not alone and many people go through this.

 

We just gotta stick together.

 

Set out to work on my novel, ended up writing lesbian porn. Again.

 

Can I read? ;D

 

To be fair, it is very tempting.

 

I'm sure a little more lesbian porn makes the world a slightly better place.

 

Why not? What's wrong with writing something like that? I'm toying with an idea of writing a fantasy romance between two lesbians (archer and mage respectively), even thinking of including a steamy sex scene inside the mage's private chambers. (and yes, it is based off of a weird dream I had of Haley and Vaarsuvius from Berlew's Order of the Stick having lesbian sex in Vaarsuvius' private chamber. Don't worry, my characters and settings will be different.)

Hell, it may do wonders for the fantasy genre to have a book like that.

 

I love you all. So much.

I wish I didn't get so easily distracted from my novel, though, since I actually like where it's going. I'll be thinking about it constantly when I'm out doing other things, but the second I get home I lose all my motivation. Bah D:

 

Is about to fall apart into a million pieces. Just found out my friend was in a wreck about an hour ago.. :/

 

Im so sorry to hear about that.

 

After I finished watching The L Word (lesbian drama) a while ago, I was tempted to haha. I'm not really into that though.

Sorry to hear that. Hope your friend is okay.

 

Lost my job

Get to write lots while I look for a new one

 

Sorry you lost your job!


Why do schoolbooks cost so much???

Edit: My knees hurt. *cries*

 

That sucks.

Books can be quite expensive. Hopefully they're worth the money. And hope your knees stop hurting soon.

As for me, I'm frustrated about this novel I'm supposedly writing. I can't decide on the angle and none of the books I want to read for research are available at my local library. Sigh.

 

There's the silver lining. Don't worry about it too much. I'm unemployed at the moment. Just keep yourself busy and don't slip into the trap of boredom.

Welcome to my former world, and welcome to my current one. I could go into market forces, but instead it's probably more conciliatory to say that the publishers have you over a barrel and are bastards for making you pay through the nose.

And keep your knees moving, otherwise there's a risk of them seizing up. Do what I do, and go running (and if you want to move several hundred miles, I need a running mate )

Be patient, plan it out carefully, enjoy the writing process.

 

I'm really sorry you lost your job - good luck looking for a new one though!!

Do you actually have to buy them all. I've been told by some people that for my course a lot of the resources will be available in the library or online - you could see if any of yours are to save money?

I don't understand why the books are so expensive though. I looked up one of mine - £31 from amazon!!

 

Academic book price is a pain in the arse, of varying intensity depending on what you're studying. With something like chemistry or anatomical biology, the subject matter doesn't change terribly often, with law it changes frequently. So buying pre-owned books wasn't really an option for me.

But if you can do that with your course, Lydia, I would.

 

I have some things I want to complain about yet overall I feel like my life is pretty good, for now. So I guess I want to complain about some things and to complain about me wanting to complain. Now I'm even more depressed =,=

 

Had to put my puppy girl to sleep today. We've had her since I was a little girl, and she was 15. Beautiful Sheltie named Winnie. But we couldn't keep her, it wasn't fair.... she kept getting sicker and sicker, and these past weeks she couldn't stop peeing and she threw up everything she ate... we couldn't watch her suffer any more. I wish it didn't have to be that way, that she could have gone more peacefully...

I hope she's in doggy heaven now, rolling around on the grass, with plenty of dog treats and summer sausage (her favorite). I'm gonna miss her so much, but I know she's waiting for me.

I miss her.