Numb

Sometimes the world just goes dark.
It's lonely and scary.
All I can hear is the air escaping from my lips.
And I wonder why?
Why if everything is dead and gone around me,
Why then am I still breathing?
It is cruel.
The numbest engulfs my everything and all i want is to stop the breaths from escaping.
Stop breathing, stop the thump thump in my chest. Just make myself disappear as I feel I am already.
I am gone but stuck in a cold dark room just breathing. My lame attempts at leaving have actually shown my why I should want to breath.
But when the world turns cold and dark, I just want it all the stop.
Finally leave this room.
Finally leave this life.

The pain from breathing hurts too much.
I am not loved for I cannot feel the warmth of love. I am just numb.​