I'm turning into an evil god of the world I created. 8/ I've given my main character a really horrible past that was erased from her memory. She spent the first few years of her life in a safe haven, but unfortunately it became unsafe when she got to about 3-5 years old, so her mum (who was also on the run from my secondary antagonist) had to take her away to try and put her with her father for a few years until things calmed down. But the antagonist ends up finding out that there's something really weird about the child, and she wants to study her to try and turn her into a weapon. So the mum gets killed and the child captured. The child is subjected to some experiments, but the antagonist's scientists declare that there's nothing strange about her. So they wipe her memory, dump her in an orphanage, and tell the caretakers that her mum was some uncaring druggie who overdosed and died(or some story like that, I haven't planned it yet). Before I go any further, I am putting some of myself into my main character, so I can really get inside her head and describe some nasty experiences of my own in full detail. Like me, she got bullied all the time at school, so she spent many years alone. Sometimes, memories of her past leak through into her dreams or at random times of the day, making her look like a 'freak' at school, so she's treated as an outcast. She manages to make a couple of friends outside of school, but that's it. The orphanage staff are constantly trying to make her 'normal', and in doing so they say nasty things and try to drag her spirit down, but she doesn't give in. The book begins when she's 15, and one day she hears a noise or see's something that reminds her of her past (bullet noise, probably), and then loads of memories flood into her head, making her freak out a bit. ^All of this is just the first few chapters of book 1! And if this wasn't bad enough, later on in the series I have planned for her to get captured by the secondary antagonist, and then she gets tortured. There's lots of deaths that she has to get over. She has to learn how to survive in the wild, meaning she has to hunt(I really enjoyed writing that scene). At one point she has to fight the darkness within her. Literally. She has to go on a spirit journey into the soul after she finds out that some dark demonic essence is bonded to her soul, and she has to get rid of it before it turns her into a killing machine. She also has lots of nightmares thanks to the dark essence. In the last book she has turned into a hardened badass, who isn't afraid to unleash her powers onto anyone who threatens her friends. Did I also mention that she gets stabbed? Don't worry, she survives it! Weakens her a bit, though... So, what do you guys think? Is this the key to a good story, or am I some psycho who enjoys seeing others in pain?