Currently I am working on writing a memoir about things I experienced in my early 20's. At the moment I am working on a couple chapters about a trip I took overseas as an international volunteer. Some of the things I experienced there were really hard...I volunteered at an orphanage in Russia, where the children there were clearly neglected and mistreated. In my free time I did some things I'm really not proud of, mostly drinking way too much and getting into a couple scary situations as a result. Parts of these chapters also deal with unrequited love. The more I recall and write about these things, the more difficult it seems to cope with emotionally. Even seemingly little things, like remembering flatmates whom I didn't especially like, can trigger an unpleasant feeling. At the same time I can't really avoid talking about these things in my writing, because they are what makes the story well..the story. As the "characters" and the "plot" come to life again through my writing, I feel like I'm experiencing them again for the first time. I realize that's probably a good thing since my story will be more accurate and true to life, but it makes it hard to find motivation initially because of it. So I guess my question is, with this in mind, how do I find motivation? Have any other memoir writers out there had to deal with this? I love writing but I don't want to be miserable afterwards either! Thanks in advance for your support.