Blog Entries from Madman

  1. My Universe

    My universe is filled to the brim. It has matter and energy that can change characteristics, it has gods, immortals, and of course, mortals, plenty of them. The humans in my universe occupy around thirty three galaxies called The Spherium. A superstate. They share their space with alien allies, and hostiles, and subjugated species. Spherian architecture is inspired by our classical architecture. Artificial space structures, such as cities, exist that can be as large as small galaxies....
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  2. Stigma and Thoughts

    When you are out and about, walking amongst people, do you reflect on who they are? What their stories are? Sometimes you can see tired eyes or gloomy looks, the way they dress can also be an indicator as to how they're doing. But most of the time you have no idea who they are or what they struggle with. Some people have called me handsome, I wear somewhat decent clothes, and I take regular showers. I look pretty healthy. So it might surprise people that I have schizophrenia. It's something...
  3. Ridiculous

    So I thought it was a good idea to post a short bit of what my fictional universe is and what it contains on Facebook. Just to gather some feedback and to see what people thought about my ideas without any story attached. Of course I was given a mixed response, some seemed to like it, others pointed out that it was nothing new, and some seemed to think it was absolutely ridiculous. It was a mixed bag to put it simply. I asked the person who said that all the stuff in my universe had been...
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  4. The Cities of My World

    Imagine a particle that can change shape, colour, and other attributes. A particle that does not decay in time. Now imagine a city built from this particle. Its marble columns stretching as far as the skyscrapers they adorn. Ornaments and details that can change from being blue to green within a single hour, or any other colour. Think if such a city took inspiration from our renaissance. Murals that are alive and move like a cinematic movie, all telling their own little stories in...
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  5. Layered Democratic Counciliary

    In my universe, there exists a vast number of civilisations. The human civilisation is called the Spherium. It is a layered democratic counciliary. Meaning it has various councils of different importance and influence levels. At the bottom, you have the star or planet/moon councils. They govern their local stellar bodies through certain councils that convene to discuss important local matters. A council at this level can consist of all the countries or local governments that exist on a...
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  6. Best Laid Plans

    Spoke to my psychiatrist a few days ago about wanting to study English. She recommended me not to at this stage, which I understand. But I still find it a bit sad. When I first got sick, they told me that the university would still be there when I got better. That was about eight years ago. Now it feels like a distant dream or something that may never happen again. I loved the university days that I attended. To explore English with like-minded enthusiasts was exhilarating. I was good at...
  7. An Idea for Dealing with Crime and Gangsters

    Hit them over the head with an electrified morning star (a type of modernized medieval weapon) and conscript them into an auxiliary armed service. Gangsters in Sweden, I believe, are resourceful haters of normality. They seek the life they do, not necessarily because of poverty, but because they want to live on the edge. They want to feel powerful and relevant. In our big society, feeling relevant can be a difficult achievement. There are millions of people who all seek their way in life....
  8. Do you have a muse?

    I believe I killed mine somehow. But I am planning to resurrect her. Perhaps I need to do some occult rituals and make a prominent sacrifice to bring her back. You know, the one that drives you forward. Where words and ideas seem to flow like a tsunami from your creative mind. I've had such periods and they're pure ecstasy. I long to be there again. I have the ideas, many of them. But the words remain mostly stuck, plastered to the insides of my head. There they rummage around for a way...
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  9. A Phantom for My Opera?

    Some days when I doubt myself and my abilities to write I think of employing a ghost writer. But in a bit of a different setup. I will write the first draft and then the potential ghost writer can refine it to a readable/enjoyable state. I love storytelling, and I love the creative process. But my produce just isn't up to par most of the time. Training is like trying to teach an old dog new tricks. I read, I watch, I practice... I learn? Yeah, sometimes I do learn. But I will continue to...
  10. Military Youth Camp Days

    When I was a teenager I attended a week long military youth camp. There I learned a lot about myself. I learned that I sucked at guiding an airplane bomb run. (I bombed the wrong city. In theory, not practice.) I got to shoot a .22 long. A cartridge got stuck in the loading mechanism, I thought something was wrong so I raised my hand and the instructor came. He just used force to guide the cartridge into where it was supposed to be. I thought the damn thing would explode in my face if I used...
  11. Something to say?

    Must a writer always have some underlying message in their fictional works? Or can they exist as mere entertainment and information? I don't know. Personally, I write to entertain and bring people to another reality, another universe. But even if I don't consciously implement messages, they are still there. In the shadows of my words. There is a suicide in one of my works and it seems portrayed like a pointless death. So, is that my eternal message about suicides? Not at all. I hold no...
  12. Geometric or Geomatian Numerals

    These are called Geomatian Numerals and were created by Countess Aductuine as her only good and lasting achievement. Countess Aductuine was born into a monarchy in the Bevarianne galaxy. She was raised to be a commander in the monarchy's fleet. Throughout her years, she schemed her way to power and fortune, leaving behind her a trail of sorrow. She was a slave owner who kept captives from many various cultures and alien races. Problems occurred when teaching her slaves to count, she found...
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  13. The Death of My Father

    My father killed himself when I was around ten years old. I can not remember the date nor even how old I actually was. Family members are the ones who need to remind me of the date and my age when I ask about his death. It struck me hard, I was nearly apathetic and very silent for many months afterwards, much contrary to my usual personality. When he died, it was like an awakening to a harsh truth. That everyone you will ever meet and love, can and will eventually perish. This set me back...
  14. Terrorism

    As far as I know, it was a Danish individual with dual citizenship who burned the Quran here in Sweden, him and an asylum seeker from Iraq. No actual Swede burned any Quran in a way that garnered so much attention, as far as I am aware. There are also conspiracy theories amongst extremists that the Swedish social agencies are stealing Muslim children. And here we are, with extremists chanting death against Sweden and dealing it because of a Dane and an Iraqi. If it wasn't serious I would...
  15. Exercise in futility?

    "When the mind is dumb, the body suffers," said my janitor co-worker to me in Swedish. That is true. Some years ago, I studided English at a university. I had decent grades and an excellent vocabulary. I only survived a few months before a mental illness took over. Nowadays it feels like my prime is gone. Like when I am trying to learn new things I can not do it. Getting new knowledge is like punching my meaty fists against a concrete wall. I feel stupid. I feel as though it is very hard...
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