Happiness achieved, if only for the moment

I feel so competent when I drink. There's just an unending supply of positive energy and empathy that pours out of me when I drink. This job that I "hate" right now seems like a blessing. Lifes hardships appear to be nothing but things to endure and learn from. This is how I want to live my life. I keep asking myself "how do I feel like this, even for an hour a day, without drinking". If there was a way, a guaranteed way of attaining this level of consciousness (no matter how hard, just as long as it was a sure thing at the end) I would be on board 100 percent.

I have so many plans, so much ambition running through me right now. Even the thought of sobering up doesn't get me down. I want to live, make others happy, enjoy a sunny day, a starry night, a difficult endeavor. These thoughts of positivity are bringing me to tears! Tears of overwhelming joy. I love everyone, even those that were born in the unfortunate position of being sociopaths or psychopaths. I just want everyone to find their sliver of happiness, and marvel at this mystery that we all live in.

I guess I'm lucky enough to experience this level of happiness, even if it's unnatural, and fleeting. It's got me thinking, maybe humans have gotten a tad bit to smart for their own good. Also, whoever discovered alcohol, bless you.