powerless

11:55 PM

I cant really blame you, I'm messed up myself, but the things you say to me make me wonder if that’s just a front or do I really make you miss me?

Who else are you missing?

What choice do I have if you were to end it ? After all, "no drama"

I don’t even want to think about these things the way I do, I don’t want to feel powerless but you really do have some hold on me, because I've come to realize that I cant be having sex with someone without these emotions coming out , how could you not expect it? The emotions that is..

I don’t know if its wishful thinking, but on the other hand maybe you do care but I only know so much about you, to be honest im scared to find out more… like if you really have 2 wives, ha, exactly what am I doing but there's something about you,the same something I hope you find in me,, I feel like if you knew how I really felt you would be turned off or something, because its probably to soon for feelings like these so that’s why im letting it out here, the things I cannot tell you about how I feel or what I think, I forgot what it was like when you were just regular to me..