Ranting. Heh.

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Oh life, why must you be so odd?

The last few weeks have been quite interesting. Although I'm not sure if it's a "good" interesting.

My parents are contemplating moving cities. They want to go to the countryside, about an hour away. Let me put this in perspective; my city currently holds around 400,000 people, this town holds 35,000. They're trying to bribe me by buying a grand piano. As much as I would LOVE that, I wouldn't be able to take piano lessons anymore with my current teacher. After years of having horrible teachers, I finally have one that is good, and she understands. And now? Well, they want to get up and move. It depends on if my mom gets this certain job she applied for. But still; it's frustrating and it feels slightly unfair. If that's the one thing I've always hated them for, it's the fact that they uproot everything, and they move when things get too tough for them. Especially when it comes to "religion." Which is why I haven't been to a church in ten years, and I won't be going to one any time soon (not that I want to.) I used to know people, it didn't matter if they were 20 years older than I was. I KNEW them, and that's what mattered most.

In other news- my writing seems to be going rather miserably. This rut will not... move away from me... Augh. Not to mention everyone around me wants me to finally go to College, and yet I refuse to, for two reasons: 1) I have NO idea what to go for, and it's too expensive to go on a whim, and 2) because I don't feel the need to go right now. Money doesn't grow on trees, and the fact that I honestly don't even know if I could get in for obvious reasons. I think I'm just tired of the social rules we're all forced to follow.

Really though, I've been thinking about this a lot lately. We go through life having all of these rules placed in front of us; don't say this, don't write that, don't even think about this possibility! Everything is so planned and brought about to be how they want it to be. We're expected to grow up, attend school for years and years (probably 17 if my calculations are correct) and for what? So we can get a job and make lots of money? So we can spend countless hours sitting in an office creating the dough we can use to buy bigger and better houses? But for what?! So we can have the privilege of knowing we're worth something because of what we own? I don't want that. I despise that.

I despise knowing people WILL look down on me for not going to College, that will happen, but it's something I've accepted. I despise the social mind because of their insistent need for new things, instead of creating relationships and thoughts with other people. We're a society forced into seclusion and I'm tired of it.

Money doesn't buy happiness, and it never ever will. I'm tired of changing just so I can "get by" and have "friends."
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