Ohhai. So, I've been missing in action for like, a few months, but now that my vacation started I thought I was going to come back and spend some more time here. Sadly, I haven't come back feeling any bit happier, primarily because of the grueling incident in Peshawar, Pakistan, that took place on 16th December. My apologies if this has already come up in a thread before, I scrolled through the most recent ones and didn't see anything. Anyhow. *sigh* I just wanted to talk about what happened. Reader discretion advised. Around 1 PM, a group of six terrorists (some news agencies claim, seven, even nine, but six is the predominant number), dressed as FC (Frontier Corps) personnel entered the Army Public School, Peshawar, by scaling its back walls. They headed straight to the auditorium, where all of the ninth and eighth graders had been collected to listen to a lecture. They broke in and at first, one of the terrorists detonated a suicide bomb, and thereafter, they started to shoot the students. As per first-person accounts, they shot one student at a time, taunting them by saying "we might just let some of you go." They then proceeded to the classrooms in the college section, and one by one killed everyone inside them, burning the teachers and shooting the students (apparently, three classes were struck). Once the army arrived, they retreated to the administrative block, and from there on they were shot by snipers and eventually the commandos overpowered them. It is possible this account has minor errors, but this is the gist of it. The attack took the lives of 132 youth ranging from ages 8-18, with a total death count of 141 if you include the adults, such as the principal and teachers. There are numerous others severely injured and battling death in the hospitals. Many of them describe scenes of carnage and terror unbeknownst to a young schoolchild who barely understands the nature of terrorism. It is the worst terror attack to have occurred in the history of Pakistan, and perhaps a deciding one for the whole world. I've heard some American and British news outlets are popularizing two very faulty notions regarding this attack, so I wanted to clarify those too. The attack was not motivated because these kids were going to school--they specifically targeted children of army men, in retaliation of the aggressive efforts being made by the army to eradicate terrorists from Pakistan. Suffice to say, the army has also killed a number of women and children in the process, and this was their sick way of taking revenge. Also, there was no gender discrimination at the level of healthcare--since the part of the institute most severely struck was a boys' school, it's really no rocket science that they primarily were treating boys. Here are some news outlets describing what happened in more detail. http://www.dawn.com/news/1151203/ttp-militants-storm-peshawar-school-126-killed http://www.dawn.com/news/1151223/i-saw-death-so-close-student-recalls-peshawar-school-carnage http://arynews.tv/en/peshawar-attack-claimed-lives-132-children-9-staffers-dg-ispr/ http://arynews.tv/en/silent-classes-bloody-notebooks-peshawar-school-massacre/ http://arynews.tv/en/peshawar-massacre-survivors-vow-defy-taliban/ Here are some pictures of the incident. Viewer discretion strongly advised. Spoiler: Graphic Images - AYOR We here are broken and crushed, and while not everyone might be as concerned, I think all of us feel lost and meaningless since the incident. I feel like I've lost a part of me, and it will never come back. Things have taken a turn for the worst, and it seems that our lives will never be the same again. I pray to Allah that these innocent souls be blessed in the next life, and those responsible face a worthy punishment. I pray my fear and disillusionment wanes, and I can smile again without feeling unworthy of it.