Confession: I did something really stupid/unsafe yesterday. I don’t think I can/should say what it was, but I’m just really lucky that I caught my mistake early enough to fix it. I feel fine now, and at least I can learn from this and be more careful in the future.
Be careful, PoemNerdy. If the stress is getting to you, feel free to PM me and vent. Door is always open, you hear?
I know how you feel, the other day I got impatient while driving it went in between two cars with just enough room to get by while going about 50 miles an hour, I don't recommend it
I did something stupid over the course of my whole chickenshit existence, dont feel bad....I gotcha beat....and I feel fine now too.
I would like to second this notion to anyone, feel free to PM me, i have an open mind and open heart. Just because i drink blood for a living doesn't mean i'm not a good listener.
Thank you guys. @Moon I hear ya, don’t worry. Not sure why I’ve been feeling like this lately. It’s not even as much about the stress as it is... (shrugs shoulders) I don’t know, but yeah I might just take you up on your offer
Yesterday i was at bible study. Vampires goto bible study? This one does, not sure if anyone but God and a few other people i know would understand that side of me. But it got very heavy in group. I told my group leader i had to get a breath of fresh air. I literally couldn't breath. I went out the side door, and walked across the wet grass. I let the rain fall on me. I think i needed that. I love rain. I leaned against the wooden fence feeling the rain fall on me, hearing the clouds thunder overhead. I started saying my own personal meditation when i have a panic attack and i want to alleviate that stress from my heart and mind. I started breathing deeply, in and out. I said this aloud, though if you want you can say it to yourself. "I see a pool of crystal clear water. It is calm as a sheet of glass. A drop of water falls, it is filled with everything i feel right now. The droplet touches the water of the pool, ripples expand out across the water. The water becomes still again. The water becomes Clean and Serene again." By the time i finished i asked myself were those tears on my face or was that the rain, I felt fine again. The moment had passed. I hope this helps anyone who wants to try meditation, it works for me it could for you as well.
Annie Lennox, haven't heard her in awhile. Perfect moment if her song started playing while I was standing in that rain.
I love perfect timing... and Irony of course. . Every time the "Rain comes again," I hear this song in my head.
Wast startin' to think it was some twisted Rorschach test or that I needed to start telling someone about my mother I dunno.....
It's a cat-hamster from those car ads As many times as I've wished for death, I should be dead from all the stupid shite I've done when I was younger. Underage drinking, and a certain kind of driving, gun that was supposed to be unloaded went off a quarter inch from my right ear, flipped a car in Tehachapi, two hit and runs and one freeway slide on a streetbike (three strikes - I don't ride anymore), and generally being where I shouldn't be, and doing what I shouldn't. God, I should write about it just to scare the craap out of my son. just substitute bull for mine... The bike and the booze is gone, and the guns get dismantled immediately after firing, and I know what to tell my son not to do. Tell me there isn't a message coming from up there that's telling us to stick around, so hang in there. Hang out here!
I don't know to the arise question. Thanks for the compliment on my imagery. I have had Panic Attacks for a long time, certain stressors would trigger it. In the past I never had a coping mechanism that would quickly and easily(sometimes) help ease that moment that was making me not be able to breathe, so overwhelming was the one emotion I felt. Now that I listen to IndigoStars ASMR she taught me to consider meditation and deep breathing. Letting myself focus on something besides the fact that I couldn't breathe helped a lot. I could focus on the imagery, I could focus on the fact that I was trying to slip from my not being able to breathe to a more relaxing state of mind, my body and mind becoming one as I gained control of my emotions and thoughts not the other way around. It helps, its hard to describe just how helpful meditation is for me in moments like that. Anyone can do this is my message, the imagery doesn't matter. We're all artists and imaginerians(new word tm) LOL. You can create whatever imagery and words you wish to contemplate on. Imagination is the key, everyone here has this in spades ♠️. Paint a beautiful picture in your mind, paint a beautiful picture with your words, take control of your mind, imagination is the key to unlocking any door you wish.
My confession is this: I’m beginning to realize I (1) have a dramatic personality and (2) tend to react emotionally in the heat of, uh, the emotion. I’ll begin work on this. Thanks y’all for shining that light on me. ONWARD FOR SELF-IMPROVEMENT!!!!
To further add to my last confession. I did not write a 1294 word short about a Cyber-Goth chick, last night.
I'll bet you did write a short story about cyber goths. Oh CT my cave troll from another mother. (Ahem) I confess that I need a CT's tech support. I try and link a picture from my Flickr account, I copy the link, I click the forum image post button, I come up with a little square an an red X next to it. Can I link images straight from Pinterest? Help me Obi Wan. Your my only hope.
It is much more complicated than that, but I appreciate the sentiment. Save the picture in your Pictures folder on your computer. Then go to 'Upload a File', and select the image you want to share. If it is not too large a file, it should post without incident.
Thanks CT where is this upload file thing you speak of? When I do a reply I click the image button it asks me to provide a link address. Viola pies la resistance! A box with a red X
