The World Is Inherently Boring I've always been a thinking person. I'd much rather sit alone in a room reading some philosophical book from Nietzche than being in a room full of people disscussing "Important" events. I genuinely try to like things I couldn't care less about. But I failed, and instead faked some interest in the subject just for the sake of being "socially" correct. If, for example, we we're discussing criminal rates and I was asked about it, my answer would probably a mix of the previous answers I unconciously picked up, plus some gratuitous and should-be-obvious statement (eg: "I'm concerned about the growing rates of murder") instead of really thinking another answer. And, the worst part, is that these suffice. One would think that people would require a more thought-up statement and development of the question. Tsk, tsk, I'm getting off-tracks. When I think about reality I often find that it is, and probably will eber be, inherently boring. I often ponder the metaphysical but I find that an absolute god, heaven and/or may or may not exist. But I don't care about the metaphysical. It's impossible to prove, so I simply find it uninteresting. And so I find anyone who attempts to prove god doesn't or does exist. I simply do not care. Thinking about unprovable things would be interesting in some context, but I just can't find it. Neither can I find interesting things like the Olympics. It's good to know just /how/ fast a human can run or swim but I don't understand all the fanatism. Probably 50.000 people at each stadium watching some exceptional people swim or run very quickly, but I just wouldn't find it interesting. Same thing for most subjects at your regular school. I find biology good to know, but I don't find it interesting enough to research or read about it outside studying. I find it sad that Philosophy is a diying course. It's such an intersting thing to think about. Except when you get to existencialism, I don't care if humans were meant to be or were simply an accident. The result it's the same. I don't find the world interesting. Animals are just that. Their inner workings, though good to know and probably should be general knowledge, is just not very compelling. I find classic art (such as paintings, sculptures and architecture [is it an art, really?]) to be a display of a massive ammount of skill, but that still doesn't interest me. I look at paintings,wonder what the authors were trying to convey, and move on. This is where writing comes in. I find that the communication of non-trivial information via writting (typed or not is irrelevant) to be the most important thing ever invented. I love reading. I read about philosophy, probability, and other abstract and interesting subjects. But reading these (and having no one to disscuss them with), I get more and more... uninterested in this world of ours. Thinking that reality is as boring as these doesn't depress me. Rather, it annoys me. Why is our reality less interesting than the one presented in Lord of the Rings, the one in Final Fantasy or the one in Incarnations of Immortality ? Our reality is bound by the laws of physics (which I value a lot), time and probability. It is possible that at any given moment the sun may turn into the gigantic head of a cat, that an ice cube in the glass of some kid in New Zealand may turn a slight shade of purple and that I would honestly consider protozoology as a career. However, the probability of either of those happening is sufficiently small that is safe to say it has never and will never happen. Just the thought that anything possible may happen at any time isn't interesting if nothing does happen. Now, I find fiction interesting because most things that can't (because of probability) happen are depicted as though they can. They take place in universes where people are certain of their beliefs enough to be rewarded with proof. The Priest may get talk to an angel, a demon may cause terror in the city and a succubus may haunt men of a town, and even though that wouldn't be ideal, it'd be interesting. Instead, we have reality where nothing really interesting happens, and most conflict is war, enforcing of morals, diplomacy and/or legality. But then I wonder, why does this worlds appeal to me more than this one? Surely if I lived there it would seem terribly boring too? One way to avoid this would be to retain memories from these reality into another, but that's just impossible (or with very little chance of happening). Fiction is where another reality is created, explored by those not native to it. That's why it's interesting, and, even though the world is inherently boring, is the only one where (un-distracted by unnatural or even natural events) I can find pleasure in this worlds. If I was a Knight in a fantasy setting, would I be as interested in philosophy as I am now? Would I find joy in pondering the universe rather than pondering where an unexplainable power as magic comes from? Would I enjoy reading the stories from Japanese mangas, American comics and just simple books or even be able to find them? No... I've come to the realization that this is an uninteresting world, but it is the only I'd choose. Intellectually, I'd only be the optimal Me (by my standards, of course, I'm not gloating : p) in this reality, rather than being a wizard, a knight, a samurai, a pirate or even a king. Even though I don't care about spirituality, metaphysics or even arts (obviously excluding writing and music*) and most of what I do is read or entertain myself via games or movies, I wouldn't want to live in another reality. This is the only one who offers me enough cynicism and entertainment and information so I can, intellectually, be who I want to be. What do you think of this? (I'm not asking you to review this, but rather give your opinion in the matter ) *Music is a distinct case. I'd rather not get into it right now.