All that work to sign up for a forum like this to get this off my chest... I’ve felt for a long while that I’ve failed myself. Ever since I was in middle school, I was writing television series spec scripts. Granted, they were short, but they followed the structure of how shows are written. I was writing all the way through high school. In fact, many times I wished I could just write and sell to studios rather than go to school. Also, kind of like a vengeance thing with my classmates. I’ll show them when I become famous. That same fever lasted through college when I tried query-lettering and writing movies. Then I write a screenplay in tribute to someone famous. I wanted to impress her with this. I get a “we’re not interested” letter from CAA and I go back to studying structure by watching tons of movies for 15 years. I’m also writing and outlining during that time. My project is tough. Maybe there’s a perfectionist streak in me; the premise is pretty tough. Lately, I found a wonderful theory that helped me focus the story. There was a writing group I’d work with that was tied in with the theory, but I can’t skype with them now die to tech issues. Then I started working with a fellow writer then life got in the way last year. I’m just now settling back in to figure this out. I just feel this celebrity never going to see it because I’ve taken two decades on it. I still believe the project would make a wonderful movie. Just seems I hit a wall and never recovered. Feeling like a failure.